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hja 
11:46pm, April 1, 2009
I'm trying to journal at least once a week. I'd journal more, but i don't do very much. Last weekend was a busy weekend. Threw Tiffany a sweet 16 birthday party. 40-50 people showed up, but it went well. It was tiresome doing most of the work, but I enjoyed it 'cause I like to stay busy. Went to church Sunday morning and then to my brother's bbq after church. Both events i had tomato sandwiches and fruit. So I did pretty good with my eating.
Jeff wasn't invited to either one cause of his unstable mood and attitude right now. He didn't say much. Ask why he wasn't invited, told him he didn't act like he wanted to be involved in any family outings. He's been better this week cause he's back to work
Tiffany got a bday card from her dad. Didn't say anything, but "I'll call you soon". I know it hurts her feelings, (he hasn't called since March) but she says she doesn't care and that it doesn't bother her, but I know it does.
Went to dr. today and I'm on another anti anxiety med. Now I'm on meds for depression and 2 meds for anxiety. It must work cause I've been in a really good mood lately.
That's about all for now, I want to tell all my friends how much I appreciate their love and support and kindness.
Helen
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Glad to see your in a good mood. The dad issue with Tiffany is bothering her, she might not always think it is. One day she will be ready to confront him. Sounds like allot of people to feed at the party. Glad you ate but you should eat some meats as well you need some iron and protein in your diet. Got to make sure your eatting all the right foods so you can stay healthy. I'll be spying on you!
IonaJ
I'm so happy that you are doing well and have a green smiley face. What meds are you exactly taking. I take Xanax for anxiety. Klonopin worked way better for me but after 10 years I was maxed out on the dose and it wasn't helping anymore.
How awesome that you did well with the eating and had fun at the family functions. Still don't know how you handled such a huge birthday party. Tiffany better loves you forever. How awful that her Dad is not interested in her. She sounds like such a sweet girl. But thank God she has a great Mom.
Karrin
Better mood can always mean better situations as well. You seem to be dealing with Jeff better and standing up for yourself, so I'm sure that must make you feel better.
I should be thanking you for your support, love and kindness. You always go out of your way to show you care. Thanks Helen, you are really sweet. xo
havenofear
yippee for the green face!!!!!!! You sound good and that makes me happy!
doctortyper
Glad you're feeling happier and have your meds sorted. It sounds like getting your meds sorted has really made a difference. It is great to hear you're getting out so much. x
KayBeth
Man i need some of your drugs (JK), how sweet your daughter had a sweet 16 party, sorry her dad being a jerk it has to hurt her feeling but atleast she has u, u r very caring and loving mom.Keep up with your journaling I'm proud of u :) love u
emmalyn
I'm glad you enjoyed your weekend and are feeling better. Meds can be such a pain! Keep moving in the direction you are, you're an inspiration!
LaughMeLovely
I feel sad for Tiffany. That must be devastating. She's lucky to have such a wonderful mom though. I want to hug you both. xo
Gabrador
im glad the party went well! Poor Tiffany, im so sorry, it is awfull to be hurt by someone over and over again. Lots of love and well done for the journalling! i need to follow your example.
dortoto
and i appreciate your love and support!!!.
glad tiffany had a great party - any photo's??. you did so well with eating, really proud of ya!!!! xxx
pixiebelle