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MickyQ 
11:37pm, October 31, 2009
Yesterday I had a depression episode at my computer. I started a shut down mode with DS. I have had this happen in the past. Yesterday I was ready to close it out. The crying was interesting. I haven't cried for years. Today I am better, and my mind is clear.
Yesterday I saw why DS is so important in my life. People here know what it feels like. They have had similiar experiences. They know about crying, and doing regretful things. They knew what I was feeling. This has passed, and I know it will be back. I had my meds upped 150mg welbutrin. Maybe it kicked in I don't know.
Let me say this, this isn't about getting an academy award or playing to an audience. This is the real deal. I have many friends who have known I was not well since I got home and saw how I was feeling. I lost a friend today because of yesterday, but gained many more. The support in DS is strong. Thank you all for giving me your love, support, and compassion.
Mike
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Mike crying is cleansing and it does help alot. My mom used to say out with the old in with the new! I am so glad your happiness has returned big hugs love~~Debbie
specialistwife
Mike, you have been supportive to us all. We are here for you too when you're having trouble.
RITKat
Hi Mike. DS friends are just the best for me. I hope you are feeling better when you get my note. Pain is just the pitts. (((hugs))) Patricia
SadTime
oxoxoxo Mike. Love, Sandra
Meekacat