MickyQ

• Peace Of Mind

  September 7, 2009 11:14am

  ;                     What really is a peace of mind?  Is it just words that sound good, or does it really exist. When do you know you have it? By being restless does that mean you don't have a peace of mind? Does it mean when  you go right to sleep you have a peace of mind? I truly believe I may never attain a peace of mind. I believe there are people out there that don't have it. I see others so happy, and seem so content that they have achieved what I never will. I will search for it, and just maybe one day I will find it.

   

                                  

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• Depression Episode

  August 25, 2009 11:58am

  ;     Yesterday I had a depression episode at my computer. I started a shut down mode with DS. I have had this happen in the past. Yesterday I was ready to close it out. The crying was interesting. I haven't cried for years. Today I am better, and my mind is clear.

   

                            Yesterday I saw why DS is so important in my life. People here know what it feels like. They have had similiar experiences. They know about crying, and doing regretful things. They knew what I was feeling. This has passed, and I know it will be back. I had my meds upped 150mg welbutrin. Maybe it kicked in I don't know.

   

                          Let me say this, this isn't about getting an academy award or playing to an audience. This is the real deal. I have many friends who have known I was not well since I got home and saw how I was feeling. I lost a friend today because of yesterday, but gained many more. The support in DS is strong. Thank you all for giving me your love, support, and compassion.

   

                                                        Mike

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