change of season blahs
October 6, 2008 8:49pm
ok here I am again after I don't know how long, writing...
i feel blah uninspired, change of season
carb craving weather for …
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Current Weight (Lbs)
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rainysdarling 
6:55pm, December 4, 2008
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About Me
rainysdarling
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About Me
I am a very addictive, creative person from a very addictive, creative family, with 15+ yrs sober, 13+ yrs nicotine free. , Food is the one "substance" left, really that is quite out of balance in my life - harder than the other addictions because i cannot simply "not eat" or "not take the first bite" as I could not take the first drink or cigarette. True there are some specific foods that I can "not take the first bite" but the bottom line is that most of the time I want to have something in my mouth and that is not about physical hunger at all. I have spent years in therapy, 12 step groups, Weight Watchers and other methods of support, and while I have improved in many regards around my eating, my physical weight and the toll it has taken as I get older is a major concern. I had a Gastric Bypass in June 03 weighing 400++lbs, regained@35 of the 125 lbs I lost in the first 2 yrs. - don't regret the surgery at all, if I never lose another pound for me it was a good choice. The bottom line is that I didn't have a lobotomy, my BRAIN is the SAME, my emotional makeup is the same = the challenges, ups and downs are still the same.
I am a very addictive, creative person from a very addictive, creative family, with 15+ yrs sober, 13+ yrs nicotine free. , Food is the one "substance" left, really that is quite out of balance in my life - harder than the other addictions because i cannot simply "not eat" or "not take the first bite" as I could not take the first drink or cigarette. True there are some specific foods that I can "not take the first bite" but the bottom line is that most of the time I want to have something in my
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Interests
art, music, writing poetry, entrepeneurial interests, blogging and online resources, reading
art, music, writing poetry, entrepeneurial interests, blogging and online resources, reading
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Journal
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Hugbook
Ray of Sunshine
Are you still on this planet? I'm cold & slow but here & OK. Hope you are well.
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Celebration
As far as that New Year's Wish...same to you Bud! Sorry I've been out of touch. I started a bunch of Xmas gift/art projects the last week before Xmas and really had to move on them. Things are calming down now. How are you?
Hug
Thanks Doris, I realised recently even though I am a member of the group Daily Positive Thoughts here on DS I so rarely check it out because its always sent to me. Becky (founder of Daily Positive Thoughts) wasn't well and I realised how much she does sending out all those positive thoughts to people so I reckon its time I did some as well. Haven't heard from you for a while, are you well or just busy in the run-up to Christmas and New Year. Take care.
Superhero Status
Here's a little superhero to help you get used to being back at werkie! =)
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Snowman
The Glinda stuff has to do with a YouTube video I saw about religion vs. gayness and the fact that a nice drag queenish diety to talk to could be quite fun. I have to develop a vision about it though...take care & good to hear from you. I need to decorate too.
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Support Groups
Close Food Addiction
rainysdarling hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Close Family & Friends of Cancer Patients
My Dad passed away 6 yrs ago after a 5mo battle with cancer. Now my stepdad is just beginning chemotherapy diagnosis Hodgkins in the bone marrow & lymphatic system.
Open Hodgkin's Lymphoma
my 73 yr old stepdad was just dianosed with hodgkins last week, in bone marrow and lymphatic system, they said he's probably had it 1 1/2 yrs. chemotherapy started today. My Dad died 6 yrs ago after a swift and savage 5mo. battle with cancer.
Open Gastric Bypass Surgery
My GB surgery was June 2003 at well over 400lbs. The lowest weight I reached was 300 (for about 2 wks) but in the past 3 yrs I've gained 35 lbs. Didn't have brain surgery as I have always said - my thinking, addictiveness, emotional makeup and issues around food and eating is basicall the same. I have never once regretted the decision to have the surgery, my health is so much better, blood pressure under control, no diabetes (I was borderline at time of surgery), breathing so much better.
Open Marijuana Addiction & Recovery
I am a recovering alchoholic/addict but my drug of choice was always marijuana, hands down. I have been clean/soberfor 15+ yrs and grateful for that. I can be in the presence of folks who are having a drink or two, but i cannot be around pot at all. Any friends i used with are no longer in my life unless they are in recovery because even if they didn't smoke when i was around, i was so obsessed with pot when I was with them that it made me nuts.
Open Obesity
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- My best progress is achieved when I consistently abstain from white sugar, highly processed foods, and follow a low glycemic index based diet. A low GI based diet is what I am working to implement consistently in my life now.
- Gastric Bypass Surgery Working / Worked
- lost significant amount of weight and still helps in many ways. i have never for a moment regretted my decision to have this surgery. It greatly improved my health.
- Overeaters Anonymous (OA) Not Working
- didn't find this helpful at all nor positive support for me though I'm not sure why since other 12 step programs have/do help me tremendously
- Physical Exercise Too Soon to Tell
- warm water walking/pool therapy 2-3x/week
- Weight Watchers Not Working
- not the program's fault, I don't consistently follow it!
