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laraM 
9:54pm Tuesday
It has been a while, ladies. There has not been much to say. DH is still looking for work - his lack of urgency around it amazes me but I am trying to let go. I can be supportive, but I can't fix this.
Yesterday was the 4 year anniversary of my mother's death. I had a complete meltdown Sunday night - I can't remember the last time I cried like that. Felt good though. The benefit was that yesterday I could think about mom w/out feeling like I would start bawling. It felt healthy and, dare I say, positive.
Ok - on to the good stuff. I have been cleared for a cycle! WHOO-HOO! I am waiting to hear from my RE but we'll be doing an FET soon. The Humira worked - my natrual killer cells are down - they want them under 50:1 and I am an 11.2. My thydokine levels slightly elevated and they want me to to IVIG but I'm not going to (for many reasons - weirds me out, expensive, no proof it works and levels are just slightly elevated). I am on CD 18 so I suspect after AF arrives we'll get this show on the road. FINALLY. I started all this immunology testing a year ago after our last failed FET. Gosh, it has been a long time!
Thank you all for your friendship and support.
Be well,
Lara
Comments
Im so sorry this weekend was so tough for you but I am glad that a good cry made you feel better. I am so excited that you were cleared for a cycle, how exciting! I am sorry if I have been a bit MIA lately, I have just had a rough time sorting through everything the last few months but I want you to know how much I appreciate your support and friendship. I feel very lucky to have someone like you in my life. Wishing you the best in everything Lara... xoxox
bcgradgirl
I'm so sorry you had such a tough weekend. But it does make me feel more normal when I get sad about my dad. BIG HUGE HUGS.
BUT WOOO HOOOOOO!!!!!! on the good news. This is it!!!! I can't wait to hear the schedule!!!!
klimawife
xoxo
jptobe
I am sorry Sunday was so hard but glad you got to cry it out. It amazes me how a good cry and cleanse us in so many ways. It is too bad more men don't cry more. I am sure it would be good for them to get stuff out. I am also sorry that you lost your Mom, even though it was four years ago I am sure the loss is just as strong today as it was when it first happened. She is smiling down on you now and is putting in good words for this cycle to work.
I hope a fire is lit under DH and a new job presents itself for him.
But most of all I wish you nothing but success with your upcoming FET! It is crazy how much time can go by between cycles. I have a really good feeling about this time. :-)
Lioness816
I am so excited that you are moving on with your cycle!! Send me your DH's resume and I can send it on to my friend like we had discussed.
JenB007
So sorry about your weekend. But good news on your upcoming FET. I will be praying for a BFP for you.
jkelly