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One more day... Mood
Monday, November 23, 2009 | A General Update story

I think this has been the longest 2ww ever.  I don't know if it is because I have been here so many times before or the fact that we did so much differently and I have such expectations.  Either way, it has been a LONG 2 weeks. 

 

I just couldn't bring myself to POAS.  I know myself well enough to know that if it were negative I would be devestated but somehow I still manage to hold on to some hope - late implantation, faulty test, whatever...I think it makes waiting for the beta even worse.  I didn't want to ruin the weekend so I decided to just wait until tomorrow.

 

I have moments where I think AF is going to show up but the cramps aren't consistent (which they usually are).  I have had no bleeding (with the exception of a little bit last week).  I am not sleeping well (anxiety) and yesterday I felt very sensitive to smells (???).  So, who the heck knows...it always could be the meds :)

 

I still have hope (although, it comes and goes...)!

 

On another note, please keep Ashley and her DH in your thoughts and prayers.  This IF is completely unfair and cruel. 

 

Thank you all for the support.  I hope to be posting great news tomorrow :)

Love,

Lara

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  1. suzannelin

    I am so optimistic for you! Tomorrow will be the longest day yet, until they call you with positive results, then you will want every second to last.


    suzannelin

  2. Jenn17

    I have such a good feeling for you! I know how long this wait must seem...you are so close to the end...or should I say the "next chapter" when you get your BFP! I am thinking TONS of good thoughts for you. (BTW...stay away from the HPTs...they are evil!!!) Can't wait for your results tomorrow!!!!!!


    Jenn17

  3. bcgradgirl

    I am thinking and praying for you hon! I know how hard the waiting can be, its even worse than the shots and all that! I am sending good vibes your way and crossing my fingers for good news tomorrow!! xoxo


    bcgradgirl

  4. klimawife

    THIS IS IT!! I can't believe you didn't POAS, good for you. I'm sending all my good vibes, thoughts and the kitchen sink your way!!


    klimawife

  5. JenB007

    I CAN'T wait to see your results tomorrow. Remember to think +positive+.


    JenB007

  6. Z1977

    Lara - I'm exciting for you & your test. I have a good feeling for you too - all those changes have got to count for something........ oxoxoxoxox


    Z1977

  7. albgray

    You have more will power than I do. I hope and pray with everything in me that this is it for you. I, too, am so sad for Ashley. It is so not fair!


    albgray

  8. AshleyPenelope

    Thanks for thinking of me even during your stressful time. I think your symptoms sound good and reassuring. Hoping for great news for you!!


    AshleyPenelope

  9. kspepgirl

    Your symptoms sound great. When I got my BFP this time the only symptom I had was cramping on and off for a few days before my BFP and mild headaches. So excited for you tomorrow!!!


    kspepgirl

  10. Debbieb

    I'm SO impressed with your patience and self-control!! Hoping for lots of positive news tomorrow ++++++++++++++ {{{{hugs}}}}


    Debbieb

  11. confirmation

    Good luck tomorrow. Can't wait to hear about your BFP!!


    confirmation

  12. SueCQ

    I understand completely about not POAS....I have SO been there! But this is is going to be very different for you...I just know it!! Love and trust sister...love and trust!!


    SueCQ

  13. Shanny2007

    Good luck tomorrow Lara! I am pulling for you!


    Shanny2007

  14. Lioness816

    I will be praying for you when I go to sleep tonight and will be thinking of you when I wake up in the morning. I know what you mean about the POAS. Either way it won't change the outcome so it may be best to wait for the most accurate result. I am so proud of you too! All positive thoughts my friend for that positive beta! BELIEVE!

    Ashley and DH are in my prayers always. IF is cruel and unfair. There is no replacement for a biological child and no way around the pain and grief we go through having IF. I am just glad we all have each other. You are a great friend!


    Lioness816

  15. BethlehemBaby

    You are in my prayers! I pray you get "positive" news! :) I'll be looking for your post to share the results. We are all pulling for you and praying THIS IS IT!!! -Jennifer


    BethlehemBaby

  16. honeyb11277

    my fingers are crossed for you!!!!


    honeyb11277

The looooooooongest 2 weeks Mood
Monday, November 16, 2009 | A General Update story

How can only 6 days have passed?

I might not make it.

Really.

Can I test yet?  We put in 2 - 5 day blasts.  Six days later...I should be 11 days pregnant.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

 I am really tired.  I slept 10 hours Friday night.  I never do that.  I have a sour stomach often...that is new.  My boobs are KILLING me.  I have some twinges down there every now and then.  I realize all of this could be the meds.  AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Can I test yet? :)

Is it the 24th yet?

Sigh.

 

Love you all,

Lara

 

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  1. Jenn17

    Aaawww...it will be here before you know it!!! All sounds REALLY good, though...I"m keeping my fingers crossed for you!!! GOOD LUCK!!!!!


    Jenn17

  2. jptobe

    Poor kid! You are prego ;). Hang in there. Give it another couple days. I love the little symptoms, though. Praying for you... xoxo


    jptobe

  3. klimawife

    There are no nice words about the 2ww. I tried to sleep thru as much of mine as I could. Hang in there....


    klimawife

  4. bcgradgirl

    The waiting part sucks! I have a really good feeling though, I am crossing my fingers for you hon!!! Good luck! xoxo


    bcgradgirl

  5. ace2

    I am in the 2ww now, too. It is hard. I go in on Wednesday for my Beta. That will be 14 days past transfer. That is a long time. But I think it is what it is, right? We can't change the outcome now so enjoy this time. Enjoy the hope of what is happening to your body. Worry about the disappointment IF it happens not before. I have taken a very Zen aproach to this round of IVF (which is not like me at all) and it has really helped a lot. I am sending tons of baby dust your way. Hang in there!


    ace2

  6. JenB007

    The 24th will be here soon enough, then it is time for you to post your good news!! I just know that this is your time. I know that it is nearly impossible to do but try to find something to do, to occupy your time and your mind and the rest of your 2ww should fly by. :)


    JenB007

  7. ErikaCas

    The 2WW is Sooooo hard. Hang in there!!! You have all the right symptoms, stay positive and take good care of yourself!!!!!


    ErikaCas

  8. AshleyPenelope

    I think you could test, I've certainly heard of folks seeing positives 11 days post ovulation. Your beta seems really late to me, as I transferred one day later than you and my beta is scheduled for the 22nd. Hooray for symptoms!


    AshleyPenelope

  9. Jcurly

    tic... toc... tic... toc...
    wish I could make it go faster for ya! tic/toc/tic/toc but then your little prego body might just get nauseous!
    Sending big hugs & many blessings!


    Jcurly

  10. confirmation

    It will be the 24th before you know it! Hang in there and enjoy this time.


    confirmation

  11. PrioleauLuv

    Coming from the person who started testing 4 days past 5dt, I would say test!! However, I recognize that my insanity isn't for everyone! I'm sending all the sticky baby vibes your way!!


    PrioleauLuv

  12. FNP

    The time is going by. Everyday is one day closer!!! Praying the time flies by for you. Try to rest today . I am looking forward to reading very soon your BFP POST!!!


    FNP

  13. jkelly

    All I can say is hang in there. I know it is easier said then done. The 2ww is the worst part of the process. I am praying for you. Good luck on the 24th.


    jkelly

  14. SueCQ

    Hang in there girl...all you need is confirmation...your already pregnant (PUPO)!!!! So enjoy this time and have some fun, this is your time hon!!! Can't wait until the 24th!!


    SueCQ

  15. StGerard

    Hey 2ww buddy. It will be here soon enough. I have no symptoms at all. My boobs do not hurt at all. You could start testing. You did not do a trigger shot right? Just don't get all in a tizzy if you do not see a +++ it is still so early. I hope this is it for all of us. Keep me posted and sticky-gooey-lasting baby dust for all of us.


    StGerard

  16. SaraRenee

    I feel you. I am going crazy waiting for the BW results now. My RE office has you call in to a mesage center between 1 and 2:30. I'm still waiting.


    SaraRenee

  17. luv4bbs

    I had a day 5 transfer and did an HPT 8dpt. My BPT was scheduled Friday last week and it confirmed the positive HPT results I got. The think the earliest I could test was that day since the HCG trigger could've given me a false result.


    luv4bbs

  18. suzannelin

    Not to encourage you, but I got my first hint of a BFP 5 dp 5 dt... Not like you have any HCG in your system to give you a false positive. I am so excited for you -- I have SO much HOPE!


    suzannelin

  19. albgray

    I was just wondering how you were making it. Hang on sweetie, you are close! Of course since I have absolutely 0% will power when it comes to HPTs, I would be testing. Honestly, it helps me so much to be prepared - either way! Sending you much love and peace for the best thanksgiving gift possible!


    albgray

  20. Debbieb

    There really are no words to help ease the agony . . . the 2ww is pure agony . . . torture . . . any way you try to get through it. But get through it you will . . . somehow. And it will all be well worth it!!! It's so hard to stay positive and not over-analyze . . . hang in there!! I am keeping it all crossed for you . . . hope you are joining me in Pukeville VERY soon!!! (I much preferred my days in Farmville, but alas . . . it seems Pukeville takes up all my energy these days!!) :)


    Debbieb

  21. Debbieb

    P.S. Your symptoms sound really good!!!


    Debbieb

  22. JudylynS

    Hang in there! I think you will be pleasantly surprised! Good luck! xoxoxo


    JudylynS

  23. macnjac

    The 2ww wait SUCKS! But, somehow, it will soon pass! Good luck! Praying for you!


    macnjac

  24. LaureNJ

    TEST! TEST! It can't hurt, buy a bunch and take 1 every other day or so. Im so hoping this is it for you!!!


    LaureNJ

  25. YvonneKB

    Good luck! Your symptoms sound positive to me! Eat pineapple!


    YvonneKB

The stars have aligned... Mood
Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Everything went perfectly today!  I had acupuncture before the transfer.  Two blasts thawed perfectly.  I went to acupuncture after the transfer.  I am home, had a great lunch and am horizontal for the next few days :) 

 

Chilly and Will are settling in...I am off to eat some pineapple to help them implant!

 

Thank you all for your love and support!

Lara

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  1. jptobe

    :-)


    jptobe

  2. klimawife

    Great News!!!


    klimawife

  3. BethlehemBaby

    I am soooo excited for you! I just know this is it! :)) I'm sorry I haven't been on here more to support you and cheer you on. I'm down and out (2 weeks now) with bronchitis, sinus infection, and ear infection. Poor DH has been really sick too. I'm trying hard to catch up on everyone's posts but get so tired so easily.

    You hang in there- and stay horizontal. That's what I did for a good 2 days after my transfer. I think it really does make a difference.

    Baby dust to you! xo
    Jennifer


    BethlehemBaby

  4. Z1977

    Yeah!!!! Enjoy this time - put your feet up, relax & watch some mindless tv!!!! PUPO! :)


    Z1977

  5. Jenn17

    Thanks for the update! That is awesome news!!!! Fingers and toes crossed!!!!


    Jenn17

  6. parothead

    take good care of those totsicles and I will be looking for good news from chilly and will very soon


    parothead

  7. ErikaCas

    I am praying for your BFP!!!! Rest up and think of those beautiful embies inside of you!


    ErikaCas

  8. PrioleauLuv

    Yay, Go Chilly, Go Willy!!!! I'm so excited for you!! You are PUPO and rest up!!


    PrioleauLuv

  9. AshleyPenelope

    Awesome news! REST UP!


    AshleyPenelope

  10. Kate0928

    Perfect!!!!


    Kate0928

  11. jkelly

    I am praying for you. Stay nice and relaxed.


    jkelly

  12. StGerard

    Great news! Sticky feet and BFP heading your way! PUPO!


    StGerard

  13. Lioness816

    I am thinking of a song, "One Boy, One Girl" by Tim McGraw. I always thought I would sing it when I got pregnant with twins (and I will) but I will share with you my wonderful friend! And I assume that "Will" is a boy and since girls are usually cold, "Chilly" can be the girl. ;-) (and if you meant Chilly and Willy well we all know what boy body part Willy is the nickname for so that is still the boy).
    Anyways, "One Boy, One Girl, two heart beating wildly, to put it mildly it was love at first site!"
    Yeppers, that is your new theme song! :-)


    Lioness816

  14. albgray

    Awesome news!!! Get some rest and let those babies snuggle in. Congrats, you're PUPO!! Big hugs.


    albgray

  15. confirmation

    Glad to hear everything went so well!


    confirmation

  16. Shanny2007

    Awesome!!! I drank gallons of pineapple juice.. bringing back some good memories! Love your baby nicknames!


    Shanny2007

  17. Debbieb

    YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


    Debbieb

  18. bcgradgirl

    So glad to hear that everything went so well. Get some rest and drink up the pineapple juice! Crossing my fingers for you! xoxo


    bcgradgirl

  19. Jcurly

    Fingers & toes are crossed, I would cross my eyes too but then I wouldn't be able to type :) maybe I could braid my hair!
    Prayers & blessings being sent your way, oh a big hug too!


    Jcurly

  20. suzannelin

    You sound so positive! Sending you warm, snuggling thoughts. Prepare to be a Mama!


    suzannelin

  21. JenB007

    Keeping my fingers, toes and whatever else I can, crossed for you. This is your time!!


    JenB007

  22. FNP

    SOunds absolutely perfect. Get ready you just brought your babies HOME!!!


    FNP

  23. JudylynS

    Thinking good thoughts for you! I know those babies are snuggling in for the long haul! xoxo


    JudylynS

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