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  • About Me

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    filaminae

    Female, 48
    USA
    Member since January 23, 2008

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      I've struggled with depression for the vast majority of my life. I've been diagonosed with both depressive and anxiety disorders. Currently, I'm a full-time, online college student (University of Phoenix). Haven't worked for 5-6 years, now. Hoping the education will allow me to eventually support myself. I found this gorgeous image at: http://home.att.net/~star_child/erte7.html

      I've struggled with depression for the vast majority of my life. I've been diagonosed with both depressive and anxiety disorders. Currently, I'm a full-time, online college student (University of Phoenix). Haven't worked for 5-6 years, now. Hoping the education will allow me to eventually support myself. I found this gorgeous image at: http://home.att.net/~star_child/erte7.html

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      From VictorR January 24

      You deserve a hug today. Trust your hopes are being sustained.....

    • Little Love

      From buzzsailer January 22

      you know where I am if you want to share vent or just cry on sholder. have a big hug and a lots of love and a large cold drink (your choice) a a extra large cup of hot chocolate and cream and a choc flake and dusting og chocolate on top Chillie red All typos due to meds kicking in night time

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      From millerk03 January 21

      Thank you! I have tenacity to spare. I think the close-up photos of my torn, bruised and bleeding private areas are the key to winning the case. My goal is to prevent the rapist from hurting another woman. I appreciate your support and ideas. Kathleen

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      From ShazzerInc January 21

      yeah I havent thats because I am really working on my self image, sorry it that sounded odd, just didnt want to sound hey the guys will love you lol yeah I hope your right, we have discussed it before, I just say when it happens it happens, just that cliche I have to love myself first. BIG HUGS. xxx

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      From ShazzerInc January 21

      haha well especially on here when you see someone, if you havent seen hem before you have an image of what you think they look like and wehn I saw it I thought wow thats you in a good way. p.s. you should not hav poblems attracting people. xxx

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    • Close Depression
      Type: Clinical (Major) Depression

      I've struggled with depression really since I was a kid but didn't look for help until I 20 years-old. Have been in and out of therapy (mostly in) ever since. Last year, I realized I would never be "fixed" or "cured". So, it is important I build a life that is rich despite recurring bouts.

      Treatments

      Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
      Works extremely well but can be hard to keep up on my own.
      Cymbalta Working / Worked
      Works Beautifully. Last summer, my medication combo was changed but am now back on Cymbalta. (Some weight gain)
      Effexor Working / Worked
      Worked for a couple of years in combination with Wellbutrin. (Some weight gain, irritability)
      Lexapro Not Working
      Didn't work for me. Adverse reaction: intense nausea, dizziness
      Meditation Working / Worked
      Works very well for me, because I meditate on a prayer that is very meaningful to me.
      Positive Thinking Working / Worked
      Works extremely well but can be hard to keep up on my own. I try to laugh as much as possible every day!
      Prozac Working / Worked
      Took 40mg/day for a couple of years. Worked very well. (Some weight gain)
      Psychotherapy Working / Worked
      Works extremely well. I've worked with a number of therapists and found only one I couldn't really work with. I jokingly call my therapist my Paid Best Friend.
      Seroquel Working / Worked
      Worked okay.
      Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
      Works extremely well but don't have a great deal of "active" support. Mostly, family just accepts that I have difficulty. Some bias (mostly unspoken) involved.
      Wellbutrin Working / Worked
      Works well for me in combination with a 2nd medication. (Actually gained weight, which I understand is unusual.)
      Writing Working / Worked
      Worked but then my privacy was violated by ex-husband when he came to pick up daughter for the weekend. Haven't felt safe in keeping a journal since and that's been over 15 years ago.
    • Close Anxiety

      I was "diagnosed" 24 years ago, while I was receiving treatment for depression. I finally found out that the physical feelings I was experiencing had a name: anxiety attacks. I've had them for as long as I can remember, but I've just... coped. My doctor tells me, "Control the depression, control the anxiety."

      Treatments

      Ativan Working / Worked
      This is my "stop gap" medication, really. I take it Only when I must. I don't like taking it regularly, because it becomes less effective with prolonged use. Also, I feel it makes me more irritable.
      Breathwork Working / Worked
      Always. I find myself working on controlling my breathing all the time. Deep breaths are wonderful things. Sometimes I combine it with pacing.
      Lexapro Not Working
      Had a bad reaction to it, even on low dose. Had to switch to something else.
      Meditation Working / Worked
      Very helpful, especially when I use it on a daily basis. Wonderful book called 7 Steps to Meditation (I think that's the name) by Eknath Aswaran (hope I spelled that right) has helped me greatly. I highly recommend it.
      Positive Thinking Working / Worked
      When I can keep in a positive frame of mind, it helps tremendously. That isn't always possible, though.
    • Open ADHD / ADD

      Found out I am ADD when I was researching ADHD after my daughter was diagnosed 11 or 12 years ago. Finally, things that I did or didn't do made sense, and I realized I wasn't "crazy" or "broken".

      Treatments

      Music Working / Worked
      I have always loved music (thanks in large part to my mom) and still do.
      Research Working / Worked
      I have the kind of curiosity they say "killed the cat". I don't believe there is really any such thing as a stupid question, either.
      Ritalin Working / Worked
      But it tended to make me "crash".
      Wellbutrin Working / Worked
      Works well for me.
    • Open Breakups & Divorce

      Still trying to put myself back together after a series of traumatic events that included a divorce that was finalized about 5 years ago. I loved him so much, but I shouldn't have married him.

      Treatments

      Couples Counseling Not Working
      Didn't work, obviously, as we are divorced and he's remarried.
      Family Therapy Not Working
      Again, obviously, it didn't work.
      Forgiveness Not Working
      I keep trying, though. My inability to forgive him keeps me bound to him... and want to let go and move on.
      Leave Working / Worked
      Should have gotten out much sooner.
      Love Not Working
      It really isn't enough when only one of the two believes it is.
      Music Working / Worked
      Depends on the genre, of course, but I sometimes "live vicariousy" through music and movies. So, caution is necessary. I'm such a hopeless romantic.
      Pets Working / Worked
      Since April, I've had to do without them. I moved into an apartment that doesn't allow them. I miss them horribly!
      Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
      Still plugging away at a number of issues and challenges.
      Reading Working / Worked
      Depends on the subject matter.
      Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
      But they get tired of hearing about it and I don't blame them. I'm sick of it myself.
      Support Groups Too Soon to Tell
      This is my first.
      Talking Considering
      I just don't know. What can you say after 5+ years that you haven't already said?
      Time Somewhat Helpful
      The pain isn't as raw and all-consuming.
    • Open Healthy Relationships

      Treatments

      Couples Counseling Not Working
      Patience Considering
      Talking Considering
      Writing Considering
    • Open Healthy Sex

      Treatments

      Patience Working / Worked
    • Open Parenting Teenagers (12-18)

      filaminae hasn’t entered any details for this support group.
    • Open College Stress

      After losing my mother, my brother-in-law, my 2nd marriage (and my job, home, stepchildren), my independence, and, eventually, my father (almost 3 years ago), I decided I had to go back to college and get an education so I would have a Future. I'm currently trying to finish my Associate's program through Axia College, University of Phoenix. Will next go for a Bachelor's in Software Engineering and probably a Master's degree next.

      Treatments

      Psychotherapy Working / Worked
      I had suffered from depression and trouble with anxiety for years, but, after the death of my mother--my best friend--I developed depressive and anxiety disorders. Basically, depression and anxiety that don't really go away or stick around far longer than normal.
      Sleep Working / Worked
      Healthy sleep is an every day goal and difficult to get on a regular basis. Sometimes, the depressive disorder makes me sleep too much; other times the anxiety disorder makes me sleep too little. Try to sleep at night only, but trying isn't always enough. [wry grin]
      Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
    • Open Anger Management

      I'm ADD, Adult Child of an alcoholic father/enabling mother, codependency issues with anxiety and depression disorders. All of these can make handling anger difficult, but I Am Committed to Doing Better.

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