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hlks 
3:19pm Sunday
I'm tired of people saying "Well, at least he stayed with you" as if that should be some kind of comfort. Yes, he tormented, abused, and cheated on you, oh and now he just sticks up for the woman who tired to drive you to suicide and whom he was fucking for six months.. but at least he stayed with you... as if that makes it better in anyway. Do you know why he stayed? Do you know what he told that whore? That he felt an OBLIGATION to stay because I was his wife, because we had a son. Because he didn't want to be a weekend dad. Because he didn't want to feel responsible for my suicide. Did he mention love ONCE to her? No... at no point did he say he was staying because he loved me.. he gave every other fucking excuse but that one. And what did he say about that? "Well, I didn't think I had to say it" What? Excuse me? You and your selfish dick almost killed me and you didn't think you had to say you loved me? And now, even after he knows all the things she did to me that he didnt know before.. like specifically planning on getting him to cheat, like purposefully driving me to suicide, like trying to convince me that he hated me and didn't want to be with me... he still thinks she's just a peachy person who made a mistake. No anger, no hate.. he doesn't thi nk she's a bad person and he doesn't even think she's a bitch... but he'll call me a bitch by the way and specifically try to hurt me even though he would never ever hurt her. He says he's angry about what she did... and yet he never had a single fight with her... even after she told him straight out that my suicide attempt was a way to manipulate him.. not a single angry word to her. Not only that, but I had to force him to stop talking to her. And if he was so angry at her for trying to kill me then why did he have secret phone conversations with her while I was visiting my best friend? Why did he have secret IM conversations where she talked about wanting to marry him?
So stop saying "at least he stayed with you" because that doesn't mean shit. What it means is that he didn't want to create more trouble for HIMSELF and it had nothing to do with me. Tell me if any part of that even hints are loving or caring about me? And with no job, no skills, and no car, i'm here in this marriage with a man who doesn't love me, but whom I have to deal with the pain of not only loving, but knowing that he has killed a huge part of me that I'll never get back and it doesn't even matter enough to him to call that whore a name.
And STILL day in and day out I have to live with it. It's the first thing I think of when I wake up, the last thought in my head before I fall into a troubled sleep full of nightmares that repeat over and over and over.
So excuse me if I'm not comforted by the fact that he stayed with me. I hate my fucking life... and I don't want to hear anyone tell me it's going to be okay or that I have to change things myself, or any of that bullshit because none of you have any real idea. If you can't be supportive of my feelings (and i damn well know i have the right to feel angry and fucking bitter) then don't say anything.
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All I know is that you deserve to be treated well and he is not doing it. No wife should ever be treated the way he treated you.
flyingfree
I'm not going to tell you that it'll be ok, or that it'll get better...and I'm not going to pretend to have all the answers, because the truth is, I've never been in your situation, so i DON'T know what it's like.
What I DO know, is that it hurts me to see such a beautiful person hurting so badly.
And I DO know that I will always be here to support you, and to help you along in any way that I can.
ldmay0426
people just don't know what to say, so whatever pops into mind.
GeocacherNY
I am supportive of your feelings...I would be super pissed and hurt to and you most definately have every right to be angry at him, her, and what they did because it sucked (to say the least.) I also know that you are a good person who deserves to be treated with respect and like a lady. If someone in your life is hurting you like that and corroding your soul I think that you should leave your sake and your son's. You cant be the best for your son if you're mentally and emotionally broken and beat down everyday. You are never stuck...there is always a way out of a bad relationship or situation...it may not be easy (in fact, most times it'd down right hard) but in the end it is always worth it. Stay at home moms have left their husbands before to get on with their lives. You deserve to be happy and I totally agree with you, at least he stayed with you doesn't mean shit if he's doesnt really love you. You deserve to be loved.
gaberob
it'd piss me off if someone told me that. like YOU'RE the one that NEEDS to be grateful?? give me a break! you don't owe him sh*t!
as for not knowing how you feel...i can honestly say that i do know. maybe not completely. no one can ever understand how another person feels if they were in that situation, too. everyone is different.
i'm currently going through somewhat of the same things on my end...but still in the beginning...our "arguments" are silent ones...not verbal...
keep your head up and stand strong! i'm with you, totally!
Shai
Shai, you hit the nail on the head for certain! I'm so sorry you have to deal with anything even close to that. they all deserve to be neutered...
hlks
I am supportive of your feelings as well, I haven't walked in your shoes so can't offer you any advice but please know that I and all your friends care about you.
Kazfar
Id sew him up in the bedsheets while he slept....& then beat the F*ck out of him. Im dead serious. Ive beat the sh*t out of ppl 4 less & he definitely deserves it. U dont need him & ur rite....there's no way u shud b in any way thankful 4 him stickin around. Any 1 tellin u that crap is sick in the freakin head! He jus told that grl that other crap 2 try 2 make himself look good 2 her, like oh im doin her a service...she cant make it w/o me & i wana b a good dad...blah, blah, freakin blah! Shes a dumb lil b*tch if she believes him. I hate that ur goin thru this. As soon as u can get the hell out & giv his sorry piece of shit ass a steel toed kick in his useless balls on ur way out the door.
I hope u get out & hav a FANTASTIC future ahead of u. U dont deserve this.
I didn mean 2 get so carried away, Ive jus known 2 many ppl in ur position, including my gf & it jus boils my blood.
servus
I agree with servus! I can relate to your situation even though its not in every way the same, but in the end, it hurts and creates such pain! Your in my prayers ok. Hugs!!!!!!1
confusedandhopeless
servus... thank you for that visual image... it made me smile ^_^
hlks