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Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

I was abused, physically and emotionally as a child and then when I was 15 started dating my husband who is verbally and emotionally abusive and, recently, physically abusive.

Treatments

Music Somewhat Helpful

I sing, but often instead of making me feel better it makes me feel worse. If I'm sad, I sing a sad song which just makes me sadder.

Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful

My therapist is his therapist too and I think she's biased. I dislike her greatly.

Talking Too Soon to Tell

I don't really have anyone outside of my therapist to talk to.. but I'm hoping being here will help

Open Bisexuality

I always had thoughts about other girls, but it was easy to brush off and be "normal" because I liked boys too (like I was supposed to) but then I got married and hubby pushed the issue because he knew I was bi, even though I denied it. Eventually I got a girlfriend and fully accepted it. Now I'm open about it (mostly), though still adjusting.

Open Infidelity

my H cheated right under my nose for 8 months but i was too sick to do anything about it. 6 suicide attempts. Now have C-PTSD

Treatments

Couples Counseling Too Soon to Tell

we went for a couple months, not now because we lost our insurance

Divorce Considering

My first response was to want a divorce. We're trying to work things out.. but who knows...

Forgiveness Not Working

How do you forgive someone for that????

Open Bipolar Disorder

I was diagnosed with Bipolar II (two) disorder in April of 2008 after several suicide attempts due to infidelity.

Treatments

Klonopin Working / Worked

50mg up to 4X a day as needed. I take the wafers which melt on your tongue so they work faster helps a lot with panic attacks and anxiety but doesnt make it go away completely

Lamictal Too Soon to Tell

Got a rash and had to stop taking it barely two weeks in.

Lexapro Working / Worked

20mg it did seem to help but had sexual side effects which in turn caused irritation depression anger etc so I stopped taking it.

Trileptal Somewhat Helpful

600mg and then 1200mg Seems to be helping with the extreme parts of the moods. There doesn't seem to be a difference so I want to go back down to 600mg if I can. Depression doesn't usually get as bad as it used to but I still experience it often and have pretty regular suicidal ideation.

Wellbutrin Not Working

I was on this in 2008 The side effects were unbearable so I stopped taking it. My doctor agreed that I shouldn't have been on it to begin with. Extreme headaches, dizziness, confusion, inability to think or concentrate, being off balance

Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depression

Hum. Been depressed since I was a kid. First tried to kill myself when I was 10. Have since been diagnosed with Bipolar 2. Depression worsened when my H cheated on me for 6 months (and i attempted suicide 5 times) and the flashbacks keep me depressed and somewhat suicidal.

Treatments

Lexapro Working / Worked

It did work, but stopped because of sexual side effects. 20mg

Meditation Somewhat Helpful

It's hard to relax enough to meditate. lol.

Psychotherapy Not Working

I don't like my therapist

Support from Friends & Family Not Working

I've tried to get the support of my H, friends and family but have failed. No support system.

Wellbutrin Not Working

not on it anymore. Not only did it never work, but the side effects were horrible.

Writing Somewhat Helpful

I keep a diary and I used to have a blog.

Open Lesbian Relationship Challenges

I identify as bisexual, but I seem to have trouble with relationships with women.

Open Vegetarians & Vegans
Type: Vegetarian

I've been vegetarian for 9 years and am attempting a transition into veganism. I have stopped drinking milk and I collect my eggs from a local farm (ensuring they're not causing cruelty to the animals).

Treatments

Raw Food Diet Somewhat Helpful

I did this for a month and, after the first few days, it became easier. I stopped when I went to visit Hubby's parents and didn't want to be too much of a bother. I intend on trying it again soon.

Open Family & Friends of Bipolar

I am bipolar and I'm hoping to help out people in this group and also to see what life is like for those I love.

Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

My husband put me through a lot for about 6 months with abuse, cheating, neglect, and emotional torment... a few people in the infidelity support group told me to look into PTSD because they thought I may have it. I don't know if I do, but I'm here to learn more.

Open Parenting Toddlers (1-3)

I have a son who is 2 (turned two May 13th)

Treatments

Patience Working / Worked

Positive Reinforcement Working / Worked

Open Healthy Relationships

Trying to have a healthy and functioning relationship while trying to recover from my husband's infidelity.

Treatments

Couples Counseling Considering

Talking Not Working

When I try to talk, he gets angry and becomes irrational.

Writing Somewhat Helpful

It helps me know my feelings.. but doesn't help my marriage

Open Diets & Weight Maintenance

I'm 5'8" and 260lbs

Treatments

Counting Calories Not Working

Curves Not Working

Eat Less Not Working

Physical Exercise Not Working

Open Parenting Preschoolers (3-5)

My son just turned 3 on May 13th

Treatments

Child Time-out Not Working

We're trying to be more consistent but time outs don't seem to be working.

Patience Somewhat Helpful

Positive Reinforcement Somewhat Helpful