Journal

meh!

why is everything so confusing all the time what am i meant to do or more to the point what is the right thing to do! everyday i think im on track and then something comes along and i have to re-evaluate everything i believe in! i love her so much it hurts but i know it will only ever be one way traffic! i cant feel like this i shouldnt feel like this im a mormon for fuck sake (a very bad one at that)! oh well im probably going to hell anyway! seeing her with char ripped my heart in half! i just couldnt stand to see her with someone else!
and when me phoebe and ross went camping in the woods and he was all over me and dont get me wrong it was nice to have that kind of attention then two seconds later he was all over phoebe what the hell! what a dick! so just meh!

you can see i havnt been on in so long ive done so much in the time ive bin away x