vnurse's Journal

Getting close to my first milestone which is exciting.  I had my ups and downs today, stressors and driving triggered cravings, but I amazingly did fine with dealing with them.  Gman and I are out and out again.  Funny, we always get along great, then when I quit smoking we fight like cats and dogs.  I thought about this yesterday and thought perhaps I am crabby because I quit (which I admit, I am) but that is not what triggers the arguments.  Last night he said I was looking for someone else, (that is why I quit smoking and started exercising, oh yeah, that is why I had lasik too)  I realized it is not me, but him that is crabby and starting arguments when I quit.  Is he jealous that i am betttering myself and he is not?  I really don't know what it is.  We spoke for only  a minute early this morning, which is odd, we are usually either on the phone or together on the weekends.  IDK what is going  on with him or with us, but I have to stay focused on my quit and not let the stress of him get the better of me.  Deep breathing. Anyways, I just tried to keep busy today with everyday life and I was able to avoid temptation that way.  Looking forward to the day when stress doesn't immediately make me want to smoke!!