hermiane's Journal

 have not written in a while been so busy trying to stay busy.  I been so concerned about my daughter. I think she might be going backwards right now.  She quit her job and has been drinking quite  a bit. She usually is not a drinker. She stays in her room which my parents have named it her CAVE most of the day.

She was attending counseling but i don't know if  it's been helping.

I hope soon god will help her with the healing of her broken heart. I pray and beg him to bring someone into her life that will love her and comfort her and bring her some hope in living a good future. All she wants right now is to be with her son.  he was her only sunshine. It's amazing to me how much that boy had consume all of us that we don't even know how to go on living without him physically here. It hurt so much to think that he is up in heaven without us.

It's not fair we deserve to have him. We tried opur best to take care and loved him with all of our heart. Our whole community cheered him on with his leaukemia battle. He was suppose to beat that monster.

Why did God have to take him that night. god must have made a huge mistake. Nothing has gone on in our lives since he left. Everyday is the same. Just sad days missing our baby.