I wanted to wish all my friends here on DS a Happy Thanksgiving. I hope you all enjoy your time with friends and families. I'm going to be heading out of town and I promised my DH that after Wednesday 12 noon I will not pick up my blackberry. It will be good to be disconnected for 5 days.
I had another non stress test and u/s friday. The baby is doing great. My blood pressure is starting to creep up a bit which is worrisome but we are keeping a close eye on it. Had a great appt with my OB after. At my next appt on the 4th we will go ahead and schedule the c-section but she is still thinking the December 28th. 5 WEEKS AWAY!!! EEEEK......
Mom is not doing so well. She will probably be moved to hospice before Christmas. She is getting very week and not breathing well at all. I'm so glad she came to visit. Dr's are giving her until Jan/Feb but in talking with her I don't see how that is even possible. My sister is putting a ton of pressure on me to book my flight now to get down there the as soon as the baby is born so my mom can see the baby. While I want her to meet her grand child I'm struggling with booking the flight now. I have no idea how quickly I'm going to bounce back from a c-section. Two weeks should be about right, but what if I have issues. I told my sister to just back off that once the baby was here I would figure out when we could come down. At this point it is only money and if I have to spend more for my ticket so be it. What else can I do. But I have to be honest. Part of me feels like sheesh, can I just have the baby and have a little time to figure it out. Why do I also have to figure out how to fly/travel with a newborn when I'm healing from a c-section, trying ot figure out breast feeding, and learning all about this new person at the same time. I feel selfish even saying it, but it is true. Mom and I said our goodbyes when she was here and we talk almost every day. I sent her a webcam and my brother is going to install skype on her computer in 2 weeks so she can see me continue to get bigger and hopefully see the baby when he/or she makes their grand entrance. The hospital has wi-fi so we can skype from my room after the c-section. Thanks for letting me vent my thoughts here. It makes me feel so selfish to say it. I know I will do all I can to get down there with the baby but I just don't like the extra pressure of thinking I have to figure out how to fly with a newborn while figuring out breast feeding and healing from a c-section. AAAAGGHGHGH....
Enough sadness today.... I think we finally figured out the name for a boy. Holden is the winner right now. I think all of our friends brow beat my DH so bad that he must have figured out that his insane names may not work. Now I know over Thanksgiving he and his dad will come up with some really effed up ones, I just need to put on my thick skin and ignore them. So that is a relief that Atilla, Vladimir, and Vidor are off the table. He still likes Silas but I got him off Ezra when I mentioned the band Better than Ezra. I liked Ezra for being names for such a fantastic author, but the biblical part wasn't us, the name just wasnt us. Neither were Atilla, Vladimir or Vidor but that is a whole other discussion. Sorry but that discussion will not longer be fodder for entertainment. I love my Dh but I still wonder about him sometimes!
I wanted to wish you all a happy turkey day. I'm going to be stepping away from Daily Strength for a while. I will check in on everyone and get updates on BPFs and births etc but I need to pull away. Some not so nice things have been happening and I'm not sure I want to be part of a group of people who will do and say the things that have been said and done. I am all about the support and love I've gotten on this site, not to mention the wealth of information. I never would have made it to my BFP if it weren't for many of you. But I'm seeing so much ugliness I'm not sure it is for me any more.
GOBBLE GOBBLE!!!
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You are getting so close!!! I will keep you and your mom in my prayers... I think you are right to wait on booking the flight.
sadbelly
I am glad to hear that the baby is doing well! 5 weeks...holy smokes, it's going to be here really soon! How exciting for you guys! I love the name choice...glad you guys agreed on one! We're starting the debate as well...never realized how difficult it was going to be! Sorry that you are in the position you are with your mom...it's tough and I know there is no easy answer for you...I will hope and pray that things work out for you, somehow.
I think I know the situation you are writing of...and I agree...I have thought about leaving that group, if I am on the right track. One individual is not being terribly appropriate, and I agree, I don't think I want to be a part of that. I am sorry you are being treated that way.
Hope you have a great holiday...thinking of you!
Jenn17
Have an enjoyable Turkey Day! Good luck on the "crackberry" drop... that is a tough one! I tried that on my last vacation in April... was successful 3 out of 4 days! Glad to hear you are going more "mainstream"... you are going to save your son from a ton of grief in school! :-p
Bless your heart! That is just so terrible about your mom! What a hard situation to be in with you as a new mom.... I hope you find the best solution for you and the baby... whichever way you decided, I know it will be so difficult.
I am so sorry that you have not had a great experience on DS recently. I am unsure of what happened. You are such a great supporter of us all and your journal entries are so hilarious! You have an amazing gift to make even the hardest situations bearable though humor... an important attribute! I hope we can keep in touch tho...
xoxoxoxox
Martha
MDB
5 weeks until you meet your healthy, happy little baby, how exciting! I would wait to book the flight if I was in your shoes too. I'm sorry you have to face this situation at all. Have a happy turkey day!
JenS77
Glad all is going well with the pregnancy. Wow, 5 more weeks, that's amazing! I am praying for your Mom and can't imagine what you are going through. Don't worry, when the baby is born you will figure out the right time to go down there. I am sure it's very tough.
Happy Holidays!!!
ErikaCas
I'm so glad things are going well with your pregnancy and 5 weeks will pass by before you know it. I can only echo what MDB said in that I'm sorry about your bad experience on DS (unsure what it is) but your sense of humor is truly amazing as I've lol at so many of your journal entries. Glad the name situation is resolved....Holden is a great name. And I too am sorry about your mom & will keep her in my prayers. You definitely should wait til after Holden arrives to see how you feel before buying a ticket. Airfares drop so much after the holidays b/c nobody flies btwn then and spring break so the airlines discount their prices. Happy Thanksgiving to you too!!
mich2
I think you are making the right decision to make travel arrangements after your c-section. Obviously, your mother is important, but you need to also take care of yourself and your newborn. Have a great Thanksgiving, too!
confirmation
Have a Happy Thanksgiving! Just wanted to tell you that I am thankful for you. I am glad that you are on this site.
I think that you are being wise not to book the flight right away. Talk your doctor about it. I think it is likely that they would not think it wise to travel with a newborn on a plane immediately after a c-section. I know that this must be a horrible dilemma for you, but I do not think you are being selfish to look after you and your babies health.
YOu are so close to meeting your baby. I can't wait to find out if you are having a boy or girl! Have a great Thanksgiving vacation.
KaraF
Wishing you and your family a happy, healthy Thanksgiving as well!!
bcgradgirl
Five weeks away!! I have to say I am a little envious! I am with you in that traveling so close after a c-section is a bit much and playing it by ear is probably the safest at this point. I am also with you in that putting a bit of distance from certain things here is a good idea, at this point you don’t need the aggravation. Have a good holiday and I hope the name contest thing chills . . . LOL . . . Tell your hubby that Silas was the obsessed assassin in the DaVinci Code, maybe that will deter that one there. :)
Like Kara, I am grateful to have you here, your comments, your journals and your very existence on this site brings a smile to my face every time I read you. So, while taking a break is fine, don’t you dare leave us!!! :)
Hugs!
aecollins