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• What a day

  May 31, 2008 6:39pm

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• Journal Entry for May 8, 2008

  May 8, 2008 8:49pm

  ;     Hi , Every thing is still going well, I continue to be more and more ristant to the temptations. I feel so much more at peace with myself right now. i have some other issues I,m working on now like some organizational skills that for so long have went to the wayside. I feel like I might be able to handle them now or at least start to improve them. Its funny how your perspective changes when you get away from a addiction  that has for so long controlled you.   For me at least I think I finaly decided to stop acting on the impulses and just not start on them anymore. I prayed for so long for God to take them away, but the truth is I didnt want to give them up. When I finaly realized that I had to put forth some effort and want to let them go  first --then He took them away. It has been so easy realitivly speaking , and it took so much of my life to do it. Doesnt make sense realy but that is the way it has worked for me. I feel so releived and it is helping my marriage so much.

            I want to incourage others to keep working on it and make up your mind to not even try to look at the pornfor even a second. This sight has helped abit in the process, in that I was able to see others struggles and realize I wasnt some scum of the earth ---just a man with problems -- not that much different then anybody else.  The chat groups realy didnt help me that much  because some times they would stir up interest-- but that is just me--they might help others as long as they dont become a spot to hang out with other people with the same hang ups. Seems to me the trick is to help each other with out stiring things up . Easier said then done I found out.   

               I do pray for freinds In here--for their healing and happiness as well, might not seem like much but that is all I have the strength to do right now.And I beleive in his healing power and that he is more able then any effort I might put out.   Good luck to all and may God bless you as he has me in my struggle.....

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