ChristinaCat85's Journal

wandering without moving a muscle

this chaos i call my mind is anything but subtle

i want out

i want to go

i want this love

or just to know..

to know what its like to be okay

to wake up and be alright with opening my eyes to face the day

can anyone see past the walls i've placed so high?

no one else can see the nightmares that haunt me night after night..

i dont even have to close my eyes

it's always pushing at me, no matter how hard i try..

i'm just bizarre

very tragic

fixing me would take a miracle or something like magic

but still, i try

and i refuse to let myself cry

why waste my tears over silent months, days, and years?

so, here i sit alone on this bed

stuck sleeplessly with this heart that's always fighting with my head.

who can save me and am i worth saving?

of all the things in life, it's sanity that i'm craving.