ChristinaCat85's Journal

Beautiful lies never last

Dreams, nightmares, reality

Where to I stand?

Time keeps going by and I watch it...

Seconds, Minutes, Hours, Days, Weeks, Months, Years...

Time drifts by and I stand behind.

Always the drifter, never the one grounded..

Is this what forever will hold?

I see their eyes..

Full of pity and disappointment..

This is not what I had planned...

'Everything Happens For A Reason', I say this all the time

But I wish I knew the reasons...

I will never let them see me cry..

I walk across my words and they crumble beneath me..

I don't fight the fall and it seems to be never ending..

When am I going to wake up? When is this going to be true?

The mirror disgusts me. 

The circles under my eyes never leave.

I'm walking backwards while things move forward

I'm pushing the answers while people hide from the truth.

I'm staring at your back as you walk away, silently pleading for you to stay.

These thoughts are within me now and I'm losing the strength to push them down...

The blade, the wall, the mirror, the fall...

This fear...