ChristinaCat85's Journal

well hello ds minxies..

things have been going alot better..i dunno where i got the strength or whatever it is, but im a lot more peaceful and okay right now and just dealing day by day.

everyday its getting easier to just accept life and everything it has thrown at me.

all the crazy stuff just makes us stronger :)

me and jimmy have pretty much been living together for the past month. hes leaving for boston within the next 2 weeks so we're staying together like all the time pahaha. we've been having SO much fun though.

im actually happy right now..

i hope i dont jinx that but, for the most part, i am happy.

i'll thank my crazy brain chemicals for letting me be that way lol

i just keep having these weird 'oh wow i realize what that happened for' moments and theyre making me better day by day.

  for example, the biggest and best realization :

the people who've dropped me, hurt me, left me, betrayed me, etc...basically everyone who's walked away from me, for their selfish reasons, and not because of something i did wrong,

 its THEIR loss...not mine.

i am not going to 'mourn' the loss of someone who obviously just wasnt good enough to be a part of my life in the first place...life is too short to waste time worrying about the ones who dont even acknowledge your presence anymore. i think that too many of us find ourselves being affected by the people who have walked away, and we dont even realize it.

im glad i realized it though cause it really has opened my eyes a lot.

and if youre in that position, think about it that way too.

i think that sometimes hitting the lowest point is the very best for a person...

you've just got to have the strength to dig down deep and pull out the beautiful person that each of us have the potential to be.

i am very flawed but i am slowly becoming happier and happier with who i am, inside as well as out.

on a totally random but fun note, me and jimmy are going to this huuuge mardi gras party saturday and of course, im obsessed with make up, so my make up is going to be INSANEEEE. like whoa crazy.

my face is my canvas, im not artistic with real paint hahaha.

then monday or tuesday, we're going with amanda down to the gulf coast here to hit up some of the parades going on during the day. im giddy. ive never been to mardi gras...yes im a southern girl who's never been to mardi gras hahaha when i was younger i just wouldve gotten in massive trouble cause i had no self control or smartness lol

so yeah. yay for happy entries.

yay for happy lives :)