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ChristinaCat85 
3:56am Saturday
What do you think about Gay Marriage?-I think that anyone who wants to get married should be able to.
Have you ever been bullied?- Yes but then i scared the shit out of the people who did it and they never made fun of me again lol
Have you ever bullied some one else?- not that i remember.
Do you think the statement "all men are created equal"- I think that its true but many people in my shitty ass country obviously do not.
How would you describe your homelife?- good.
Have you ever stuck up for someone when they were being bullied?- yesh.
Do you have a deep, dark secret?- yes i do.
Who knows this secret?- a few people.
If the love of your life moved four states away, would you stay with them?- ha.
What are some things that would make you break up with someone?- cheating on me, being a sexualpredator of some sort
Have you ever had something to do with a crime?- not a major one lol
When was the last time you said I love you and ment it romantically?- like an hour ago.
Same as above but to you?- like an hour ago lol
What would you do if the love of your life was in serious danger?-freak the fuck out
What was the worst breakup you've ever had?- oh lawd.
What would you do if you saw a homeless person crying?- be devastated and give them a dolla.
Have you ever given money to a homeless person?- no there arent many homeless people in Ltown
What is the worst thing you've ever said to someone?- ive said many horrible things to people. i have this horrible temper that doesnt come out often but when it does, hurtful, evil things fly outta my mouth.
Could you leave the current person you're dating if they cheated?- rawr.
Have you ever been cheated on?- yes.
What song means most to you?-Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd and Breathe Me by Sia
Which person/people mean most to you?- my family and friends.
How much do you care about family?- alot lot lot.
Have you ever been disowned from a family member?-no but ive disowned someone in my family.happily disowned.
Have you ever been disowned from a friend?- probably.
Have you ever disowned someone?- yes.
What pattern describes your mood right now?- relaxed.
What color describes your modd right now?- light blue.
Can you think of a reasonable answer to why you feel the way you do?- yes but it stays in my brainacles.
Have you ever felt as if you lost your One True Love?- yes.
Have you ever actually slept with someone (not sex)?- yes. quite a few people.
How did if feel when you first kissed your current bf/gf?-dont have one.
What does it feel like to hold their hand?- whargarble and mashed potatoes with gravy.
Have you ever been forced to do something you didn't want to do?- daily.
Who do you think is smarter: You or your Parents?- the smurfs.
Describe what you feel in your heart right now:- blood and glitter.
When you close your eyes, what do you see?- red and white shapes.
What do you dream of?- mostly confusing or bad things.
Would you take home a hurt animal you found outside?-yes
How would you feel if you couldn't have the person you're with?- alone. as always.
What would you do without your best friends?- lose my shit.
What would you do without your family?- lose my shit.
If you lost everything, how would you survive?- somehow. start all over.
Would you take care of your sick parents/grandparents?- sure.
What have you accomplished in your life so far?- sanity.
UN- Who was your first roommate?- no one.
DEUX- What was your first job?- at a check advance.
TROIS- What was your first car?-red 96 ford mustang
QUATRE- When did you go to your first funeral and viewing?- 3
CINQ- Who was your first grade teacher?-Mrs. Pulliam.
SEPT- Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? never been on a plane plane
HUIT- Who was your first Best Friend? Nikki
DIX- Where was your first sleepover? Nikki's
ONZE- Who is the first person you call when you have had a bad day? Mitchel
TREZE- What is the first thing you do in the morning? become angry cause i'm waking up in pain.
QUATORZE- First tattoo or piercing? first tattoo was for my 23rd birthday, first piercing was when iwas a baby
QUINZE- First crush- John Stamos lol
SEIZE- current crush? no one.
Do you like it when toothpaste bubbles in your mouth?-uhhh.
Have you ever had a pet goldfish?- quite a few.
When did you last eat waffles?- a while ago.
Does being in love make you gain weight?- i can breathe and gain weight.
How old is your oldest cousin?- pretty old.
Do you think Obama has tried drugs?- probably lol
What color is your bra or boxers? -bra is blue
What brand is your refrigerator?- uhh. dunno lol
What is the best thing to happen to you this year so far?- Ethan :)
Would you burn the American flag for a million dollars?- yes lol
Where did you get that shirt you're wearing?- wallyworld.
Do you play pranks on April Fools Day? i told my mom i was pregnant once lol
What is your name?- Critty the panda pineapple pie lady.
Where did you get the underwear you are currently wearing? Old Navy
How many pairs of Converse do you own?- one
There is a mummy standing behind you. What do you do?-piss myself and run my fat ass away
Have you ever snuck into an R-rated movie when you weren’t old enough to see it without parents?- no lol
What did you think of Panic(!) at the Disco taking out the exclamation point in their name?-i thought it sucked. but they put it back now so its all good lol
Have you ever gone camping?- yesh yeshHas anything funny ever happened to you while in Wendy’s?- yes.in high school, i told a friend of mine i hated ketchup so a ketchup war happened soon after. it was gross and funtay
Are you nude while writing this survey? definitely not lol
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since my last few journals have just been random surveys or poems that dont make sense to most people, and no one seems to care to talk to me right now, i figured i'd write a journal.
i'm so tired of being a 'paranoid' person. i find myself waking up and going to sleep with these thoughts that just wont leave me alone. i can take one little inch and stretch it into a mile. which means, someone can say one thing and i'll take it as something totally different and convince myself that i am right in my thinking. its very, very, annoying. i want to be one of those people who just floats through life without obsessing over things they cannot change or stop from happening.
there have been many times when i've sent myself into a panic attack by doing this to myself. i'm just so afraid of losing people or something going wrong in my life. i know that it's not healthy and its also irrational to wig out about the future of things i have no control over but i honestly cannot help it.
when you've had so many important things ripped out from under you in life, its hard not to be afraid of it happening again and having to feel that sort of pain again.
my mind is definitely my worst enemy.
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just remember to breath! that's is the only thing you should focus on if your having a bad day... I also Recommend trying DBT. Also the movie "the secret" changed my life and the way i think...
all the best
TLIG
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WOW. I don't know how to answer you. I can just hold you in my thoughts and pray that you will feel better and have better control at some point for yourself and your future. Have you received doctor's care or a psychiatrist's care for this? I'm sure you have. You are so young - you have to get the help you need now so that you can have a normal life and emotional security. I'm rooting for you. SUE
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I sympathize with you. I often have severe anxiety and work myself up into a frenzy where I am hyperventilating. I agree with the person who gave advice to just breath. And take it from someone who knows, you can help it. Often we just do not make the right choice. I know it is hard. I just worked myself into a frenzy last weekend over control and fear. But it can be conquered. My sister takes meds but I am just re-learning my thought process. I know that the fearful thoughts are lies and they are unrealistic. I just tell myself stop. I actually picture a stop sign. And then I tell myself that what I am thinking is not true. I then replace it with a positive thought. Obviously it does not always work. But as I practice, it does get easier to replace the negative thoughts with ones that are positive. I don't know if this will work for you. I am trying to tell myself that not only are my thoughts not correct, that they are unhealthy to me. Anxiety just makes my MS symptoms worse. I want to feel good. And if learning to retrain my mind will help I will try anything to keep my body healthier. I also have a strong faith. And that helps me out a lot of the time. I found that I have to also be forgiving and give myself grace for the times that I perceive I fail. That is often harder than stopping an anxiety attack. I don't know if this will help you. I will be thinking of you and say a little prayer for your peace of mind.
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Christina,
It sounds like Obsessive Compulsive Disorder to me, which I know well after dealing with it for 30 years. Have you ever thought you might have it, or had someone mention that you might. You might get a lot of relief from reading the OCD boards on here and even joining that group, if you feel comfortable doing that or think it would help.
I know that I have dealt many times with the whole going over and over again what someone said to me, to the point of driving myself crazy. Going to a professional and getting meds that help with OCD and anxiety really can help you get on the level with the rest of the world and make life so much more bearable. Just a thought.
Kelly, I too, have MS, I was diagnosed 8 years ago, i take Betaseron and I love it. I have also found some things to deal with my fatigue. Drop me a line sometime if you want to chat about it or anything for that matter. Hang in there, guys!
Jane
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A quiet mind is a precious gift...elusive, but very worth the gentle opening.
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Christina, After my 29 yr. old son,Paul died April 2,2003, I began having awful anziety and panic atacks that someone else close to me would die. I was so bad I could not even go anywhere because I was afraid to miss a phone call. My wonderful husband,James verybody together and got them cell phones( and 1 for me too.) Even the grand kids who wre young at the time. I mean in grade school. James did it because he is just good, and he just loves me. I have no idea why he is so good to me or how he loves me so much. Well guess it does not help because my other son took his own life Dec 10, 2007, Steven was 38. Then 3 days after his memorial service my 34 yr. old step daughter,Karla also took her own life.(all 3 deaths were related. Each kid felt guilt ,however illogical and unfounded ,over the others death.) So here I am still fighting anziety and panic. I have been in counseling, and I am on antidepressant, and anti anziety drugs (as needed,) I do not need them all the time now. I have prayed, got help, and got understanding , and I am better now. I still struggle, but it is not bad like before. With the love of God, and my family, I have progressed and gotten much better. My prayers and love for you,Peggy
Did you stand on your tippy-toes when you had your last kiss?
no. i will for my next one though ;)
Do you like the same person you did a month ago?
yes
Who were you with last night?
mitchel lol
Last person you kissed calls you, what are they calling you for?
to stalk me somemore
Kissed somebody whose name starts with a C T D or S?
C-yes. T-yes. D-no. S-yes
Do you ever think about the past?
yes
Do you believe ex's can be friends?
definitely
Do you have any plans for Friday?
tax training and whatever else.
Do you think the person you like/love likes/loves you back?
i certainly hope so
What makes you instantly like someone of the opposite sex?
i never instantly like someone.
Who are the last 5 text messages from in your inbox?
no one lol
What were you doing an hour ago?
watching South Park with Mitchel
In the past 72 hours have you been under the influence?
depends on what youre talking about lol
Does anyone know your password besides you?
no
Are all of your friends virgins?
quite a few of them are
Who was the last person to lay in bed with you?
Chris
Have you ever kissed somebody driving?
haha yes.
Do you want to see somebody right now?
yes i do :)
When's the last time you cried?
a few nights ago
What is in your backpack right now?
dont have one
Would it be more likely of you to fail Science or Math?
Math
Will you regret your next kiss?
nope. i look forward to it :)
Are you a forgiving person?
yes
Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?
no
Have you ever kissed anyone with a tongue ring?
can i count myself
Where's the last place you went besides your house?
the bank
Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
yes
Did anyone see your last kiss?
no
Do you believe your ex cares about you?
yes
Kill the spider or let it out?
kill it
Are you short?
very short
Last people you rode in a car with?
Blair Bear
Are you thinking about anyone?
yes
Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch?
yes
Anyone of the opposite sex been on your mind way too much lately?
always lol
Are you nice to everyone?
nope
Today did you kiss a person you have feelings for?
nope
Last movie you saw in theaters and with who?
Harry Potter with my Mommy :)
Where was your default picture taken?
my bed bed
Anyone you're giving up on?
not currently
Do you know anyone who's been in jail?
yes
When is your birthday?
September 6th
What are you going to do after this?
talk to Mitchel and Mandie
Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right?
all the time
Do you go to the beach for a week during the summer?
no
Do you like when a guy takes you by surprise and kisses you?
yes
Have you ever gone for someone despite knowing they were bad for you?
in high school
Does it matter if a guy has a sense of humor?
yesh
Does it mean more to you if a guy uses the word 'beautiful' about you?
if he wants to then yay for me lol
Is your hair longer than your shoulders?
way longer than my shoulders
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Yay surveys!
Im not gonna steal it this time, too much talk of kissing. lol
Past Entries
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Yay I like both of those songs :)
They put the exclamation point back? Damn they cant make up their mind. haha
Haha ketchup war! Yaay!
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