chatters’s Profile

Open Sexual Abuse

My granddad abused me from around 5 yrs to 10, every time he looked after me and my brothers. I do feel that i have put some of the memories behind, some things are still a bit fuzzy. Part of my obsessing over having my bathroom very clean comes from this. However even this has lessened over the years. And now I'm glad to say, i don't feel the same urge to bleach everything in sight. I still have bad dreams from time to time, he damaged my relationships with men in my family.

Treatments

Art Working / Worked

Don't know if I express what happened, but i always try to celebrate everything i draw, at the moment I'm painting and drawing faces based on my self portraits which is very connected to how my mind works, how I'm feeling, my insecurity's and the things that i hide from others like things that happened to me during my childhood and my youth.

Talking Working / Worked

I had counseling for around six months. This helped me heal so much. And set me on a good track which didn't become easier but became more real for me. For example i stopped hurting myself with not eating. I stopped using clothes and make up as a mask, and stopped trying to be someone else. It took a lot of work but i did it.

Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

My father was violent in drink, he smashed the house up and sometimes hit my mam and me. I spent a lot of nights sitting with my Mam waiting for him to come home.

Treatments

Art Working / Worked

On going helps me to express how I'm feeling. Also helps me to see all the positive things around me

Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell

Just started counseling for this and its started to help me deal with some of the pain and grief i still carry around with me.

Open Anxiety

Open Financial Challenges

Have lots of debt. Trying to treat as another bill to pay and not get in any more debt

Treatments

Budgeting Too Soon to Tell

Cut Up Credit Cards Somewhat Helpful

Debt Consolidation Not Working

Open Healthy Sex

Open Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)

I found out i have IBS about 9 years ago. My problems with my tummy started at college. Later the problems became worse and i eventfully went to doctors. The doctor sent me for tests. Nothing was found so doctor said i have IBS. The doctor has prescibed with different drugs and high fiber drinks etc. None of these worked. I find that avoiding certain foods, mainly wheat and gluten helps a lot. This has been the only thing that has worked. Still have bouts but less frequently

Treatments

Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked

This is continuing to be the only thing that works so I'm sticking with it

High Fiber Diet Not Working

Did not work, made the systems worse

Imodium Working / Worked

Works by stopping it. But as a last resort. It can start a cycle of bad bouts if i take them too much