why ?
April 6, 2009 6:00pm
the other day my sister in law came over with her fiance. i dont mind them coming over but they never call first, they just turn up. i was almost …
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bevjt
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About Me
bevjt
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About Me
well as you can see i am no longer a new bee. i had written in my profile before that i had a part time job. but i got fired on fri 13th, over stupid things. cos my one of my references has different days of employment.i had told them that i started at b and q in the april of last year, and i said i left in july, which i did but i went out sick. and so b and q still had me on their records for a year. but i was being honest in saying i left due to illness in the july.so i only really worked there 5 months.so i am unemployed now and in a awful marriage that i dont seem to be able to make it work or get out of.
well as you can see i am no longer a new bee. i had written in my profile before that i had a part time job. but i got fired on fri 13th, over stupid things. cos my one of my references has different days of employment.i had told them that i started at b and q in the april of last year, and i said i left in july, which i did but i went out sick. and so b and q still had me on their records for a year. but i was being honest in saying i left due to illness in the july.so i only really worked there
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i love craft work, but as you know when your depression is in full swing, its hard to concentrate and do your hobbies. i cross stitch, knit, crochet, card making, scrpp booking, sewing. but right now i hate even thinking of even trying to do it. i think now i am working on my family tree. genealogy. i cant wait. the local church of jesus christ of latter day saints. i dont belong to that church at all. i am just going in to use their family history centre. i did to it once before at one of thier library in ogden utah, when i live there, and was able to trace back alot on my grandmas side, but now i need to work on it all again and print it off.
i love craft work, but as you know when your depression is in full swing, its hard to concentrate and
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why am i such a bad person
January 31, 2009 5:41am
i feel that no one wants me, so why am i here ? my husband hates me, my doctors have finally decided to remove me from their practise. nothing i do …
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help me, tell me what to do
January 21, 2009 7:19pm
i have had alot of different things going on in my life this month or so, and i dont know what to do. first i had a front tooth extracted, so now i …
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i need help, can someone help me.
January 8, 2009 9:30pm
as most of you know things arent going well with my marriage, its worse now as he has been sick, and i took care of him. but he does what he wants …
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me again,
November 16, 2008 11:59pm
i am sorry friends but i can no longer post items on the web site, as the pepper man has closed me, saying that i upset alot of people on here being …
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get rid of tyhe bastard i have no problem telling him off
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Sorry for the mistake I thought I caught them ALL. I thought Ipswich was in New England. I know there is one there.. I hope you have a Marvelous Weekend. (((HUGS))), Tom
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hugs for you Bevit. Have'nt heard from you for a while. I hope ypu are ok. xxxx
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I see that you're feeling Horrible and that won't do. I'm sending you a Great Big Hug to Brighten Your Day. Tom
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionusually my meds help me with my depression but right now my life is overwelming and i am have down hill fast. and i know the signs of going down hill
Treatments
Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
i was abused by my mum for years. all my life really. if i did something wrong it was what ever was in her hand she would throw at me.the mental abuse was far worse. i was never worth anything. she would call me dumb and stupid. so now its hard to get along with her. she walked out on my dad four days before my first o levels. what mum does that? i would love to have a decent relationship with her now i am grown but its not going to work out. cos she's still telling me how bad i am & worthless.
Treatments
- Divorce Somewhat Helpful
- in ga you have to go to a councelling class before you are granted a divorce. i had to go but my ex didnt because he was no longer living in ga
- Forgiveness Not Working
- i find it hard to forgive. but since i moved back to the uk. i thought it would help my situation but its only made it worse. its not nice to be told that i am fat, lazy, loud and common. but i was told that in an email from my mother. i honestly thought we might get on better with me moving back. but she still holds a grudge. she is jealous of my dad, and cant stand my husband. and she says its cos of him i am common.
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- i find it helped alot. cos you meet people who have gone through what you have.
- Leave Not Working
- i have tried to get away, i lived in the usa for 18 years, but it didnt change things at all. she would always tell me she loves me, but her actions are far from that.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- i have just started to go to councelling, and its been helpful in some ways. the counceller has really hit the nail on the head in one part, that i just want to belong to a family. and i never do feel that way. and i tend to try and distruct it. but right now. august, my counceller has two weeks off. and i feel awful. i cant talk to any one. the time i spend with her are good. she knows me so well after just a few weeks. i cant wait til she gets back in two weeks. she shows me its not my fault.
- Talking Working / Worked
- i find talking is good. and talking to a professional is alot better. you can only talk to your friends so much before they get fed up with listening to you
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