Alphonsus's Journal

Just thinking of the way I felt between, say, seventh grade and the completion of my undergraduate years of college.  It says something that this song still resonates so deeply with me.  There's some part deep within me that still feels this way.

It's an unhealthy song.  Other than making one feel bad about oneself, I'm not sure what else it does for people.

Still, I've listened to it maybe six times tonight.

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Creep by Radiohead

When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out the door
She's running out
She run run run run...
run...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here...