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JimK 
12:51pm, October 29, 2009
Tuesday, June 30, 2009 - 3:05 PM
I spent much of yesterday waiting on a long-distance call from Florida regarding the new catheters that I am using and having trouble with. The phone call never came, just as I suspected would be the case. If the problems are not resolved by the end of the week, I will make another call to the company that manufactures them. I can be persistent when it is necessary.
I also spent much of yesterday and today waiting for a package of medicine that was mailed to me from the mental health clinic. I still have not received it. I am beginning to think that the medicine will not come today either.
Throughout the past three days, I've spent a lot of my time reading a very good mystery book; The Cemetery Dance, written by Douglas Preston and Lincoln Child. For anybody interested in reading about these authors, and the books they have written, their website is: http://www.prestonchild.com
When I got the nice phone call from my brother on Sunday, I started thinking that this would be a good week, but it no longer appears that way. That optimistic feeling has now gone by the wayside.
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I have had weeks and days like that too Jim, Hang in there hugs-Stephanie
CoolGal
Weeks ??? Hell, I have had decades like that !
These are some of the energy draining tedious tasks that accompany life.
The good thing about them , is that do take a vacation from time to time.
I hope the catheter situation and the medicine issues work out soon.
How frustrating for you.
GoodGod
If you have trouble with the catheter folks, lemme at 'em.......
I'm sorry you're being so easily dashed by the little things. It's how a child behaves, and I was hoping that when you got to be the child you never got to be, it would have more joy in it. You can't change your past, but you CAN decide to have a second one. I know it's easier said than done, but if you can think of anything you didn't get to do, maybe doing it now will help relieve you of the pattern of disappointment you always have.
I worry...... about you.
Hugs and Mojo
Weebs
KweebsLS
I worry too. I find it incredibly hard sometimes to cope with constant disappointment. Jim, I'm really concerned about your brother's ability to cause this. I still wonder if you wouldn't be much better off without him in your life. I will wait for you to decide what is best for you but I'm gonna keep harping about it because he reminds me way too much of my own brother.
I just found out my meds are no longer covered by health care, which boggles my mind. I'm on disability and barely making ends meet. If I was working, my meds would be covered. Common sense seems to be lacking there. I'll bet you are easily able to cope with these types of frustrations because you have them all the time. You should give lessons to others on how to cope with this.
Thanks for sharing the book title. I'm finally feeling able to concentrate on reading again so I might check it out. I've been searching for a new book to read.
If we lived in the same city, my son and I would come and take you to Subway. He loves that place and he's really good at picking out delicious food from there.
I'm sending hugs and mojo too. Take care.
Samadian
Weebs, I am truly sorry that you worry about me. You should not have to be bothered by anything that happened to me either as a child or as an adult. Because there is no such thing as going back into the past, I will never get to be the child that I should have been
I suspect that I missed a lot of fun, enjoyment, and pleasure in life, but it is far too late for that. The child I might have been slowly died at the hands of others who cared more about satisfying their own sexual perversions than they did in providing positive nurturing for me.
Most of my adult life has been filled with one disappointment after another. The life I was subjected to as a child came back to haunt me as an adult. I am sure there were many things I never got to do, but I am also sure it is far too late to do them now.
Sam, I am sure that you are as concerned about me as many others here, and I am very appreciative of that.
It is true that my brother has caused me many disappointments. However, I am not at the point where I am ready to give up on him. I cannot bring myself to cut my ties with him. I believe in close family relationships, even though I realize we do not have one yet. This may be nothing more than a pipe dream I have, but at least it gives something for me to work toward.
As for your difficulty in getting your meds, two thoughts came to my mind immediately. Some pharmaceutical companies offer free medications for those who are unable to afford them on their own. You might look into that. Also, when I was having difficulty getting medications and my insurance company would not pay for them, I switched to another company that would. That might be another option for you to consider. Since I am not giving lessons yet, you can have this advice for free. lol
If you look at the website for the book title I gave you, and you think you might want to look at some of the books written by those authors, you might consider trying to get them from your local library, or downloading audio versions from iTunes.
The Subway store that I mentioned is about two blocks from where I live, which is a short jaunt for me. I usually have the woman who cooks dinner for me go there and pick up some sandwiches at least once a week so that I get somewhat of a variety of things to eat -- not that her cooking is not any good, because it is quite tasty.
Thank you for the hugs and Mojo.
It is too bad that all of us have bad weeks -- or decades. I was talking to Dr. Martin about that today, and last week, and she said that she thought it might be time for me to talk with my brother about using some of that money he had for me in order to take a vacation. I am beginning to think that she might be right. If I do not get away before the end of the year (even for two or three days), I believe that somebody will wind up putting me in a straitjacket, which I would not like at all.
JimK
"I am sure there were many things I never got to do, but I am also sure it is far too late to do them now. "
THAT IS NOT TRUE. NOT TRUE NOT TRUE NOT TRUE.
When I spent time with the neph and niece, I got chances. I just had to be discreet about it so as not to steal their moment.
I still have a silly childlike side, and I try to let it out to the playground whenever I can.
I think you should go buy some bubbles, and blow them on the next sunny day. I think you should buy some crayons and a coloring book and have at it (I have crayons and a big tablet I occasionally massacre with attempts at drawing). I think you should watch some of the kids' animated movies that are out. Just let yourself go.
It has nothing to do with being immature. It has everything to do with giving yourself a break from being so deadly serious all the time.
Instead of posting the kid with the static hair, BE THE KID WITH THE STATIC HAIR.
Give it a try sometime Jim. If it doesn't pan out THEN you can be critical of it.
Hugs and Mojo
weebs
KweebsLS