Journal Entry for December 6, 2008
December 6, 2008 11:50am
cthays 
2:30am, March 19, 2009
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About Me
cthays
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About Me
I am and therefore I am. I dream. I fantasize. I listen. I am in one of the 10 dimensions of the universe. My main goal in life is to be a nice person. Why? Because I can be a mean SOB. I want to be nice and helpful to others. I want to start a campaign to cleanup America by asking everyone to help me pick up litter in their own neighborhoods. I have been diagnosed as having Bipolar type II, schizoaffective disorder, depression, PTSD, SAD, psoriasis, arthritis, and fibromyalgia, otherwise I'm FINE. You know what F.I.N.E. means? Freaked out, Insecure, Neurotic, and Emotional. Have a nice day. I am also GOOD, grateful ole onry dude.
I am and therefore I am. I dream. I fantasize. I listen. I am in one of the 10 dimensions of the universe. My main goal in life is to be a nice person. Why? Because I can be a mean SOB. I want to be nice and helpful to others. I want to start a campaign to cleanup America by asking everyone to help me pick up litter in their own neighborhoods. I have been diagnosed as having Bipolar type II, schizoaffective disorder, depression, PTSD, SAD, psoriasis, arthritis, and fibromyalgia, otherwise I'm FINE.
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Interests
God, being nice to people, picking up litter, cycling, walking, helping mental health clients, classmates.com, dailystrength.org, and working the 12 steps of Emotions Anonymous, and watching MMA cage fighting.
God, being nice to people, picking up litter, cycling, walking, helping mental health clients, classmates.com,
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Have not heard from you in a while, hope all is well, check in if you have time. Hugs to ya!!
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Craig I have been having a really rough time. I am in trouble with the locals here. and also the feds. No I am not being paranoid. I wish that's all it were and I could take a pill and it would all go away. I have been staying away from the computer. Thus in a way my *family* in California. I am sorry to have worried you. I am looking at prison time at the very least probation for a very long time. Stephanie Knows the whole story. It's not that I don't trust you or care about you, I just don't don't feel like typing it out again. Tell her I said it was okay for her to tell you about it. If you are interested. Needless to say I am in a word of hurt right now. I am going to church regularly. We have been in revival this past week. It was awesome.
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Accidents
I "accidently" hurt myself. Recently I ran into a car on my bike and broke my arm and orbital bone. I had to have stitches above my eye. It's been almost 6 months now and my hand still hurts, but I can use it. I'm back to riding my bike. Riding the upright comfort bike doesn't hurt, but riding my road bike hurts a little because I have to put weight on the left hand.
Treatments
- Cycling Working / Worked
- a wonderful way to get out and enjoy nature while getting those endorphins pumping; can be good cardio also.
- Physical Therapy Considering
- they won't give me any
- Surgery, Hand Working / Worked
- Clonazepam Working / Worked
- works great for getting me to sleep at night and reduces anxiety
- Xanax Working / Worked
- works great to help me relax
- Darvon Working / Worked
- helps relax my mind a good destressor
- Ambien Working / Worked
- helps me get to sleep
Open Bipolar Disorder
I was diagnosed with Bipolar II , in 2004.
Treatments
- Geodon Not Working
- could not sleep without it, it did not help my psychosis
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Emotions Anonymous works great!! My bipolar support group at Kaiser is wonderful.
- Haldol Not Working
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- it works, be patient at first
- Risperdal Not Working
- just made me tired and sleepy
- Seroquel Somewhat Helpful
- it worked but I felt too tired the next day.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- I felt dizzy and manic
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- works great I take it in the morning.
Open Food Addiction
I am addicted to anything that has sugar in it. I'm 6 feet tall and weigh 245 lbs.
Open Alcoholism
I am 51 years old. I was an active alcoholic for 13 years. I have been sober now for 13 years.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- very good
- AA Meetings Working / Worked
- excellent
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- went OK
- Willpower Working / Worked
- fear of going to prison works well
Open Loneliness
I have felt alone, lonely, and unique most of my life.
Treatments
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Working / Worked
- I force myself to go to EA organized bicycling rides bipolar support groups and a part time job. I have never regretted going to any of these. The hardest part is starting.
Open Abstinence & Celibacy
I am married and have been celibate for several years. I'm just not interested in dong it with her.
Open Epilepsy & Seizures
my sister has had epilepsy for over 40 years. I would like to find a cure.
