ladysings's Journal

I came home to see Pops took my aromatherapy out of the garbage, cleaned and polishedso bright I Prasie You Jesus! I also was able to help serve at the wedding as floral arranger assistant. I was able to play Friday Not with the violin but with 224 sunflowers( yes they have a mind of their own), daffidels and others. It was wonderful and beautiful. The bride and groom wanted a garden wedding and we transformed the chapel into one. It was fun and a lot of hard work, but praise be to God, I felt useful for a moment again. We also made the bouquettes and boutineares, the floral table arrangements. There was a great big let down Sat though. I realize I have been running from a very big giant during this whole workers Compensation, No fault and just plain falling in the house and I can't get up seen. Dealing with my very dysfunctionsal family(which makes me dysfunctional). I took a look in the mirrir and didn't like what I saw. I guess when they(certain family members) call me little Shirley( my moms name) I guess the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. I grew up with so much negativity, verbal and emotiional abuse, I ran so far from it just to come back to the same issues that were never dealt with. I am becoming the very personality that I say I dispise. Its been a humbling couple of days The Lord is dealing with my heart on so many many levels. I can't just pray for and witness to the world about the goodness of God and totally ignore my family. The Lord is showing me to lavish His love, grace and tender mercies to my family, do not react to their actions, good bad or indifferent, but to be still and know that He is God almighty. IT IS TIME TO FACE MY GIANTS, ONE BY ONE AND TAKE OVER THE PROMISE LAND. GOLIATH IS COMING DOWN IN THE POWERFUL NAME OF JESUS CHRIST!

Smooches!

Lydia 

Ps. I invited a dear church friend over for the first time for fellowship. It went very well.I introduced her to my family!