ladysings's Journal

Today is a day to start a new chapter in my life. I truly have to let go of my past and rest in the unknown. Today I went to Workers Compensation Court and met a lady that was so nervous she needed a tissue( she was very anxious). I gave her a tissue and prayed with her. It's funny how God works. I'm out of my pm meds so I was up and had about three hours of sleep. I scrapped up enough carfare to arrive on accesaride and get a dry bagel(I always want to throw up in the vans ). I walked into the building as nervous as this nice lady. After praying for her there was a peace in me. Her case went in her favor, thank you Lord! Mine was a little complex. The insurance company has to reimburse me one more check and I wont receive anymore temp disability until my trial date in 4 months? Wow how humbling a day makes. I have depleted my account, ran up all my credit, I still owe my bankruptcy lawyer $600. I have no choice but to try social services. The Lord is truly sifting me of every proud, boldness I ever had. I am walking in many of my patients shoes. They have been here. I finally understand to truly trust and have faith in my only hope and friend, Sweet Jesus. I will wait patiently every step. This is just a test, this too shall pass. Yesterday the kids went home. My nephews and neice, 12,7 and 2. My mom is 78 and she had them for the summer( you know I mean we had them). They are sweet but I will enjoy the quiet for awhile. A new baby is on the way. Another neice is due soon. She had her sonogram today. the baby is already 6lbs 9 oz in the belly! I'm proud of this child(the soon to be mom). She has diabetes just like her mom did, but she is kept it under control with her diet. Her mom passed away too young from diabetes and high blood pressure! I'll soon have another one to help raise! I don't type much these days,