spring0808's Journal

Today started out being an upsetting day. My son has found a house and is moving out this weekend.I am so proud of him.It makes me happy.   I have had negative vibes and outburst from my family. My husband, son and I are elated. My mom seems to think that its a bad idea. She also said dont call her for anything. Remember I am the one that has always respected her regardless. I have never asked for anything. I have always found my own way. How hurtful she has always been to me, but this year....I step away, again not responding negatively and just said he will be ok,he's made it this far without  , still not saying without you as not to hurt her feelings . I said ,he's made it this far he will continue. I am so easily hurt. How do you toughen up your heart. How do you keep people from hurting you.? How? I felt like screaming, crying, I have wanted to be loved and accepted by her all my life, I was doing fine and then came the call and the insults. O.K I just have to maybe not take her calls or just do what. I am the weak one remember.I looked out and it was snowing, I thought how beautiful. I decided to dwell in that moment . Then my heart reminded me of the hurt. I will try to do better at handling this from this point. I just cannot be disrespectful. I love her and I just take and take. What would you do? I need help with this issue. Just kindly tell me. I want to handle this in 2008. Help me.? I am made differently and I respect my elders, even at this age. I can"t step away from grandmas teachings. I want. There has got to be a better way... Should I just let go.....