spring0808's Journal

Maybe its just depression. They say that the gloomy days have a lot to do with depression, and all we have had lately are just cloudy days. I thimk that I have to put forth a better effort on leaving home and going out and being around people. Where am I to go. I am a loner. I dont like going around or putting myself on my family(sisters, brothers,mom) only to get my feelings hurt. I cant handle anymore disappointments. I seem to be stuck. I let my son use my vehicle for work and for  all these months it hasnt bothered me.Now I want to go somewhere and I feel I have no where to go. I am sad I heard this song on my sons IPOD, by alicia keys, Love me like youll never see me again and I broke down and he took his ipod. I never have heard a song that makes me think of my life. Its really deep. I just cant let go of how sad it made me feel. I have to try harder. I have had a down, down day. I managed to do my housework and cook supper, wash etc. but that is not fulfillment for me. I will find something to do maybe volunteer. Hope your day was better than mine. I feel as I have no purpose.  Hugs to everybody