spring0808's Journal

I remember at a early age in my life, wondering why, or why not me. I also can recall going through my teens where kids are really cruel and wondering what makes you act this way  towards me. I also have asked even if we are flesh and blood why are you so evil or why do you treat me so evil. I have raised my children up right and I have lost a child. I have dealt with cancer 2 times already  and I choose to be happy for the rest of my days. How many of you can say that If I go today I am ready, or prepared I am at a point now in my life where I have some control and I say to hell with ya. I don't have to be used or mistreated or told how special I am. I know who I am and my worth. I feel that there will be so many to miss out on just how great I am. I am a mother, a wife, a friend, a confidont, an aunt, a nanna an adopted sister, a seamstress, a cook, a church member and a soloist in my church chior, above all else I am a christian. I am at a point in my life where I choose who I wish to be associated with and who I dont and at this minute I choose to be plain old ordinary, Happy, content,and at peace with my life me. God has been so good to me. He has carried me through so much and all I can do and want to do is praise his name and say Thank You Dear Father. I wake up with joy, unspeakable joy and I feel like shouting sometimes and the tears just run down my cheek. But Oh the glory of God. I asked God and he delivered. I was told  by my grandmother you will understand by and by and so I have recieved and am blessed. I am praying for everyone. I asked God to watch over you all and to ease your burdens and lighten your load. Only God has the power and if you truely believe, talk to him and he will anwser.. God Bless you all  Love Sandra