spring0808's Journal

I think that some women like myself that spends their lives as a stay at home mom find that after their children are grown then they wonder  whats left. I spent most of my life trying to be the best mom and I think I am. I now suffer with depression and guess at this stage of life I always will. I allowed so many things to take control. Fear. I just hid everything, tucked it away so nice and neat, who knew that it would come back and bite me on my keaster. Now I am lonely. You find friends that seem to care, but do they really. It seems that I get calls but only for their benefit.They want to ask you for advice, or want you to do them a favor.I saw the video of Randy Pausch, the last lecture"A celebration of Life"" and I was in awe of this man. He left the video for his sons. He had pancreatic cancer and knew he was going to die , so from the day he was told he had 6 months he began this journey of being happy everyday for the rest of his life. He was an amazing man. I think now I get this one day at a time, we can only live one day at a time lets put all we can into each day, I mean really put all we can into it. I have been a sad sap and have let things burden me but no more. I will live my best life yet.I go for a cat scan friday wish me luck.