spring0808's Journal

How do I define myself. I am a good person. I am a trusting  and trustworthy person. I love deeply and I love openly. I have always had a problem standing up for myself. I dont like it when people make me feel like I am unimportant, like what I want, feel and think dont matter. It leaves me frustrated. I want to have a peaceful life. I want the people that I love in it. I just cant stand pressure especially when things go back and forth , up and down and in and out. I do know what I want out of life, I may never achieve and thats okay especially if its material things. I just want happiness, joy, love, friendship and I want all that my heart can stand. I read an article today it was about someone I knew. I went to the hopsital once for a nervous breakdown. I saw someone there famous, I thought even he gets help for his problems, the article said he died and did not specify how. I know it was the same old sanerio overdose, he had issues with such. People dont understand that you go through these things and you literally struggle the rest of your life, trying to go on ,dealing with underlying issues everyday.  I just want to be happy and God will send me the things that I deserve in some way or another and if no I will survive