Journal Entry for January 6, 2009
January 6, 2009 6:25pm
I want to die
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musicmad123
8:28pm, October 18, 2008
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About Me
musicmad123
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About Me
Hellooo all i'm a bit crazzy (understatement of the century) I self harm -2 n 1/2years Depression Suicidal tendencies Social Anxiety (recovered selective mute) Insomnia anger/stress management issues on and off "un-helathy eating habits/EDNOS, I have zero self esteem. Diagnosed with Emotionally Unstable Personality Traits, Mild/Moderate depression...blog.... .www.blogger.com/musicmad123
Hellooo all i'm a bit crazzy (understatement of the century) I self harm -2 n 1/2years Depression Suicidal tendencies Social Anxiety (recovered selective mute) Insomnia anger/stress management issues on and off "un-helathy eating habits/EDNOS, I have zero self esteem. Diagnosed with Emotionally Unstable Personality Traits, Mild/Moderate depression...blog.... .www.blogger.com/musicmad123
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If I haven't ever spoken to you I won't add you... im a dancer, I play piano and sing, I love being on stage ... ermm yep that's me
If I haven't ever spoken to you I won't add you... im a dancer, I play piano and sing, I love being on
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Journal Entry for July 26, 2008
July 26, 2008 4:00pm
this happened about a month ago but i forgot to update.. starting anti-depressants
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I'm thinking of you! You made it through another day!
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hugs to you!!
Rainbow
hey i wanted to give you a hug, but then i saw the Rainbow and was like WOW! anyways, can we be friends?
I’m With You
I'm with you, sweetie. I went through an awful lot when I was young and my head couldn't handle it, so I scooped the memories somewhere way back in my hard drive. Much later in life, they came back out. However, I've come out on the other side a-okay. I'm thinking of you. peace and love ... Kyle Anne
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i am doing kinda crappy right now, and i am trying not to cut, but not succeeding...but i will keep trying...hope you are doing well and thanks for the support.
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Close Self-Injury
I've been scratching and cutting myself for over 3 years. I also punch walls or myself and sometimes pull my hair out. I feel I am addicted to self-injury, I cut pretty much every day, it's getting increasingly worse.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Considering
- mneh it wasn't specifically for SI and there were like 3 of us and one of mentally incapable of participating in conversation, but, given the chance, I would like to go to group specifically for SI.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- I'm in psychotherapy.. I don't like it, I hate how I always end up repeating the same things that actually aren't important at all. I hate how the therapist just sits there and hardly says anything.
- Red Marker Somewhat Helpful
- mehh bit helpful i guess
- Squeezing Ice Not Working
- not the same..
Close Depression - Teen
I'm severely depressed, for about 3 years, although it hasn't been "severe" the whole time, it was gotten gradually worse. Depression has taken over my life, I can't remember what it feels like to be happy and care~free, I have been on anti~depressants but currently just using psychotherapy, which I hate!
Treatments
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- We did a lot in inpatient, I did quite like it.
- Celexa Not Working
- It didn't do a lot, I was taken off it for abusing my meds...
- Music Working / Worked
- playing piano, singing makes me happy sometimes
- Prozac Too Soon to Tell
- At the moment it is making me feel VERY sick and tired... no mood changes that I've noticed yet..
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- I hate it !
- Talking Working / Worked
- I've found having one to ones with nurses in hosp everyday quite helpful even if I didn't think I had anything to say
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- I like to blog when I can be bothered, I wrote poeticy type things sometimes
Open Eating Disorders
I think i have EDNOS sometimes I eat way too much, sometimes I starve myself and go three days without anything, sometimes I over exercise...i hate myself
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- she thinks I can get over it like I did before, I'm not so sure...
Open Teen Anxiety
I had an an extreme anxiety disorder as a kid called Selective-Mutism, now i have social anxieties, panic attacks etc.. I hate being in crowded places with lots of people, sometimes I get so scared in my own house I can't open a door or leave a room or even turn my head because I think there wll be someone there I hate them all looking at me, I hate being around then all, trapped when they're all staring
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)just got diagnosed with emotionally unstable personality traits which apparently is the same as borderline ? kiinda scared about it tbh
Open Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety
Yeeep I have social anxiety, at the moment it isn't too bad, but I do struggle in many social situations
