Journal Entry for November 8, 2009
November 8, 2009 4:37pm
Today has been just as hard as yesterday. All I do is cry, think about him and want to be with him but I can't. He chose to end things with me …
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heather83
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About Me
heather83
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About Me
I was a member here for a while and left for a bit and then came back because I needed to be feel like I "belonged" somewhere again. I'm a 26 y/o woman from MA dealing with, mostly, depression, anxiety and an on-going "mysterious illness". The doctors can't find anything wrong with me internally yet I'm still in pain and suffering. They all just think I'm crazy. I just want to be healthy mentally, physically, emotionally and relationship wise. I'm back to see if I can better myself once again without being judged or told I'm crazy.
I was a member here for a while and left for a bit and then came back because I needed to be feel like I "belonged" somewhere again. I'm a 26 y/o woman from MA dealing with, mostly, depression, anxiety and an on-going "mysterious illness". The doctors can't find anything wrong with me internally yet I'm still in pain and suffering. They all just think I'm crazy. I just want to be healthy mentally, physically, emotionally and relationship wise. I'm back to see if I can better myself once again without
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Journal Entry for November 7, 2009
November 7, 2009 10:42pm
Today has been one of the hardest days I've had in a long time. After being together a bit over a year my boyfriend broke up with me stating that …
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Journal Entry for October 22, 2009
October 22, 2009 11:57pm
Ok, here's a question: Why do we pay so much for health insurance if it doesn't get us anywhere or aid us when we need it to???
Today I …
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Journal Entry for October 7, 2009
October 7, 2009 9:22pm
Well, it looks as though I'm back. I didn't think that I'd be back when I decided to leave 3 months ago but here I am.
It's …
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Journal Entry for July 4, 2009
July 4, 2009 9:40am
DailyStrength has helped and seen me through a lot. I've poured my heart out here and shared more with the few I let in than I ever have in …
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hey Heather big hugs for you, friend. Nice catching up last night. Working on getting a note back to you should see that in a few. :)
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hi heather,aww! sorry for what your going through!
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The shopping was great! I did some clothes shopping. I got a $10 gift card with my purchase at Sears and then another $10 gift card at L.L Bean! I went food shopping later and got a buy 1 get 1 free frozen pizza. Life is good! LOL.
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Happy Sunday Heather! What are you up to today? I'm heading out to do some shopping.
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Love you. :)
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Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a SiblingOn December 26, 2007 I lost my older brother unexpectedly. He passed without knowing how much I loved him or wished to know him. I regret that I let time pass without forging a true relationship.
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- Grief Counseling Considering
- Keeping Busy Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Considering
- Remembering Not Working
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Support Groups Considering
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI've been dealing with depression for over 10 years. I've learned how to deal with it myself as I have an issue with medication and I don't have anyone around me that would understand or even try to understand. My depression comes in cycles that last days, weeks or months. **edit** Up until August '09 this was truly my stance, now I'm given medication a try and can say that I hated it. It was awful. I'd rather be depressed than acting like an emotional zombie with no ambition.
Treatments
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Psychotherapy Considering
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Trazodone Not Working
- Absolutely horrible. This made me more depressed than I was and made me tired all the time. I took it at night, as was prescribed, which knocked me out and was helpful but the next morning I felt hungover and was still tired.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
Open Families & Friends Of Addicts
My older brother was an addict of both pain meds and heroin. On December 26, 2007 he succumbed to his addiction and passed away of a heroin overdose. My younger cousin is an addict. She went through rehab and has been clean for 3 years. I'm incredibly proud of her but still worry each day about her. My older cousin has just recently been diagnosed as an addict of prescription meds. I'm worried she's not taking getting clean seriously.
Treatments
- Patience Somewhat Helpful
- Psychotherapy Considering
- Talking Working / Worked
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
Open Anxiety
Anxiety has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. I attribute it to my shyness and depression. I do not treat my anxiety with meds. **edit** As of August '09 I am now on meds as my anxiety was completely out of control. My meds have helped me tremendously but I don't like the fact that I have to rely on them.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- Breathwork Somewhat Helpful
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- This works quite well. I take it at night and then can take it, as needed, two more times a day. I think that if I took it the three times a day, as it's prescribed, I would be useless.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
Open Gastritis
In July of 2009 I became really sick and had a visit to the ER. After numerous tests they couldn't find anything wrong with me and Dx me with Gastritis. Well, 2 months later I wasn't any better and got a formal Dx by my GI, through an endoscopy, that I do have Gastritis. I hate it.
Treatments
- Protonix Too Soon to Tell
- Was given this Rx after trying Prilosec twice. So far I haven't had any side effects with this Rx and it seems to be working, or at least I think it is. Being that I didn't know I had Gastritis in the first place I don't know the difference.
- Prilosec Not Working
- The Rx made me ache all over and I was given the minimum dosage. I took it twice the first time for 15 days original Rx and then was given it for 6 months but I stopped taking it after 3 weeks because the side effects were worse than the condition itself. I was told this is a rare occurrence and was looked at like I made it up.
- Antacids Working / Worked
- Definitely helps for those times when youre so bloated you cant do anything. Works ASAP too which is quite helpful.
Open Breakups & Divorce
My boyfriend of over a year broke up with me, and broke my heart completely, because his feelings for me were only "friend-like" yet he said that I was perfect for him. I'm beyond sad and have never felt so alone. I miss him terribly.
