I am so angry right now. I wrote …
I am so angry right now. I wrote a very lengthy journal entry only to have it deleted by the site telling me that I was …
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Thanks to all of my friends, new and old, that commented on my journal entry. I think it was one of the toughest ones I ever wrote. I felt ashamed but knew I would feel better once I wrote it and I did. I started school tonight.. online MBA program and I am just exhausted. Worked all day, came home and fixed some dinner for the kids, and then logged on... Lots of reading and very overwhelming.. I sure hope I can do this. It will be good to keep me busy, keep my mind occupied with other things than gambling. I am so tired, but wanted to write and thank all of you for being there for me. I promise to sign on everyday whether it is to write a short journal entry or comment on one of my friend's journals or just to read.. I know it is important and I know it is part of my recovery. Today I was thinking to how I wasted the whole holiday week-end because of the guilt and shame I was feeling, not to mention the worry of how to pay for things.. I hate those feeloings and I don't want them to ever come back... I will put those in the memory bank for the days when I get urges and think that gambling is the answer...It is not even close to the answer... not even close. Hope everybody has a wonderful evening..
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I'm so glad you are feeling a little better. It does help to get it out. Good luck with school! You can do it, I have faith in you, all you need now is faith in yourself. Peace and Love. Patty
mrsfroggie
It sounds as if you are doing better today. I am so glad to see that you are looking at what you need to do. Keeping busy helps you get through day to day and working on your recovery keeps you moving forward. Try to keep occupied but not over-exhausted. That can bring on a whole new set of problems. I hope you get lots of rest and have a wonderful day.
purplecat
Congratulations on starting school! I am sooo hoping to be able to do the same thing soon, waiting to hear about a full scholarship I applied for. I'm glad that you are feeling better today. I spent the holiday weekend the same way you did....dealing with regrets and guilt and trying to figure out how to pay for things. An utter waste of time.
Hugs, Julie
searchingfor
You are getting it together again. Well done.
Thinking of you today
xx
Alison
alzie2
Coming here daily has been my saving grace all these months! Wishing you much success in your MBA program! WTG!!! Hugs, Dianne
DianneE
Connection is a really good tool for me in my recovery - when I disconnect I can tend to get complacent and the memory of why I am in recovery fades a little.Today i am glad I remember - I too play the tape in my head when things get a little fuzzy.
My friend - you are here and so are we, we are in this together and you are not alone. You have been honest and open and you have a willingness to change.
HUgs and love to you - Suzi
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