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DianneE 
5:03pm, May 29, 2009
After my 20-day stint of work, I am finally off for the day!!!!!
YAAAAAAY!!!!!!!
I slept in, and have no real plans other than to go to the pool, as it is supposed to get up to 105 today, and then on to 110 for the next 2 days......sigh......
I do great when it is in the 90's...no problem....but I don't know if I will ever get used to the 105 and up weather!!!
I'm going to go visit my Mom in July, and it is very humid where she is, the heat here is very dry, so more tolerable. The end of July, I go to Lake Tahoe for seminars, so that will be a welcome relief from the heat. Can't wait!!!
I went to Lake Tahoe last year as well, and worried for months before about the temptation to gamble there. I feel very differently about it this year. I have a slight concern about the stress of walking through the casino to reach meeting rooms, restaurants, etc. ....but as my friend Eastwester told me once....gambling is all around me....lottery tickets in every corner store...I could gamble now if I wanted to. In fact, there are 5 or 6 casinos located from 15 to 50 mins away from where I live!
The thing is, I don't want to gamble. It wouldn't matter if I worked in a casino, I still don't want to gamble.
I am human, and having it in my face is definitely more stressful than being safe in my little home....but at this stage of my recovery, if Steve Wynn himself asked me to come to his casino and gamble, I would say NO.... LOL
So, I might say a little prayer as I stride past the machines....but I know I will not let them grab me. That is how I picture it in my mind.....but that is still in the future....and that is still just a fantasy. What I have that is REAL is what I do right now.
Just for today, I will not gamble....and that is all I need.....along with the support of my recovery family here.
Thanks for being here for me...you beautiful people have made all the difference to me and continue to make my recovery possible...
Love and Hugs, Dianne
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Hi Dianne ..Nice to read your JE..
'Heat 'wave. Pool.. nice.. it is hot 'here Today but 'tolerable.. no humidity yet.. which makes the heat horrid 'sweat drip ,, lol
Tahoe 'conferences /meetings are a bit away but iffen you handle Today.......that is only concern I have also.. Meet Today.. tomorrow 'is another day '.
'love yah 'Sandra..
gams5
I remember your last trip there. If you can do it then you can do it now. Now that you know what life is really like with out gambling you can be stronger. Enjoy your much deserved day off and relax by the pool. Peace and Love. Patty
mrsfroggie
Ditto...Thanks for being here for me...you beautiful people have made all the difference to me and continue to make my recovery possible...
Moyer
Pools are great, but I'd much rather do the beach...
Enjoy your day off! And I know you'll have a blast in Tahoe...
Lavender1
Wow.. I understand about the heat,.. been in the high 90's here lately, but of course just about as high of humidity.. today was nice..great break.
I have no doubt you will do just fine in Tahoe.. you are such a strong and committed person.. You are a role model to all f us.
loosenomore
I hope you have gotten to enjoy your much deserved, and I'm sure much needed day off. Was it really a year ago that you went to Tahoe? My time flies when you are recovering. lol. I know I walk by lottery stuff everyday and it doesn't faze me anymore....still don't like the idea of being around the machines too much. Maybe someday I will feel strong enough to try to be in the same room....maybe not. I know that I am safe with the way I live my life now...why chance it? It's just in the 90s here today....too hot for me, can I join you by the pool? Have a great weekend, and try not to work too hard.
purplecat