RDST's Journal

 On Jan. 2, 2008 I recieved a call from my Mom at about 9pm. She was calling to let me know that Independence Police wanted to talk to me. In my heart I knew exacally why, but still asked just to hear it for myself. She said they had arrested Bill Watkins for child molestaion, and had heard that I had been a victim too. My heart stopped.... FINALLY! This man (if you will) dated my Aunt from 1983-1986, the whole while he was molesting me.

 It was 9:30pm when I called the detective. He asked alot of questions which brought back all of these bad, bad memories, and feelings. He was very comforting. I agreed to sit down with an local detective in the near future and tell my whole story to them. When we got off the phone I went to the internet and pulled up the news articals, and formal complaint. All of these years I have been a very strong woman, but when I seen the pictures of this man, and read what he had done to these little girls I LOST IT! The guilt, anger, hurt, helplessness, rage.... all of these emotions hit me at once.... and have not slowed down. Mr. Howe (the detective) asked me to start writing things down as I remember them, and I have been trying to do so. It seems like it occupies my every thought. I am always on edge, snappy, and can hardly stand myself. that is what brings me to this website. Hopefully if I can meet others and see how they have dealt with similar situations, write my feelings down, share my story.... maybe it will help.