ledliyl's Journal

My ear was doing better and now it is so loud.When i swallow it makes the noise move. My other ear is making a weird sound it is hard to describe. It's like whens someone shuts a door and you hear that air pressure.I woke up at 3:00am and  took a valuim to help my nerves, not working.My mind keeps wondering will it stay this way.I made a soup yesterday for my family and i had just a little bit b/c i was hungry and the soup came out so good. I think that is what triggered the loudness or it could have been the grapes i had.Im very careful what i eat but sometimes i just want to eat normal.Sometimes i get so angry b/c i have to watch what i eat that i just want to drink those protien shakes and stop eating food so i don't have to worry about the salt continet or sugar.Christmas is tommorrow and like last christmas i have to eat like a bird.I make everything homeade and this year i bought a organic turkey it says it only has 80mg of soduim but i still have to be careful not to over do it.you can easly over do it on the holidays.I have lost quiet a bit of weight and my family ask what  kind of diet are you doing. I say none im just staying away from salt and msg and watch how much sugar i eat .That is basically everything.I think in Jan im going to do the shakes and raw vegestables.