Mommy2lexylu's Journal

     Well.....I am back from the bench dedication. It went very well. I was so nervous facing her and her family for the first time. My fellow childcare home provider girls came for my support and I don't know what I would have done without them.  We arrived a little bit early but Kaili's mom was there with some other people setting up.  It took me a bit to get up the nerve to approach her but I eventually did with the SIDS awarness ribbons I had made with Kaili's picture on them.  She asked who made them and I said I did. She then gave me a big hug and said thank you for them and thank you for coming. That made me feel so much more at peace with the situation.  The bench site was beautiful. It overlooks our local childrens playground. All around the bench is a flower bed with very pretty flowers and plants. In  the middle is a sign that reads " Kaili's Garden". We made a circle hand in hand as the pastor dedicated and said a prayer. After it was over I approached her mom again to say goodbye and she hugged me again saying she was sorry things happened the way they did and she is planning on calling me to talk and plan a fund raiser in October for SIDS. I feel that we both needed this for the healing process and I'm so glad it went so well. I know it was difficult for her to see me and I thank her that she was able to overcome that feeling for the both of us and ultimetly for Kaili.

Thank you everyone for your thoughts and prayers!!  I don't know what I would have done these last few months without you guys!!!!