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January 7, 2009 10:10pm
Sorry it's been so long since I've been on.
I wonder if anybody thought I'd died.
My mother had me put in treatment.
They wouldn't …
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PinkEyeliner
9:57pm, January 7, 2009
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About Me
PinkEyeliner
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About Me
My name is Kalea Jones and I am not a diagnosis. There is so much I could write here, I like to talk about myself and I'm okay with that. My favorite color is purple and I love to dress up. I'm on a journey to better myself and to rid myself of bad habbits. I want to learn more about myself and about the world around me. I've finally found the family and home I've always wanted and I feel like it's only just started for me.
My name is Kalea Jones and I am not a diagnosis. There is so much I could write here, I like to talk about myself and I'm okay with that. My favorite color is purple and I love to dress up. I'm on a journey to better myself and to rid myself of bad habbits. I want to learn more about myself and about the world around me. I've finally found the family and home I've always wanted and I feel like it's only just started for me.
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Interests
Music, art, design, spending time with my family, dressing up, going out, writing, cuddling, and play fighting.
Music, art, design, spending time with my family, dressing up, going out, writing, cuddling, and play
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Journal Entry for February 2, 2008
February 2, 2008 3:40am
Hey, I am feeling better now. I haven't cut and I've pretty much left all my scabs alone.
Still not doing so well in school tho.
Valentines day …
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Journal Entry for January 9, 2008
January 9, 2008 2:02am
I haven't cut in a couple days but I'm still picking at the wound on my knee, although it doesn't look as bad as it did. It stopped …
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Journal Entry for January 6, 2008
January 6, 2008 5:20am
I am definately not the happiest person in the world right now. More than anything I've disappointed myself.
I skinned my knee somehow and I …
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionWell, I guess I've been on the train of deppresion since the age of seven, maybe earlier, at least that's when they started shoving anti-depressents down my throat. I've tried to kill myself before, wasn't any good, went through treatment, and blah, blah, blah, but I'm still not any better. Depression is the pits.
Treatments
- Lexapro Not Working
- I hated being on the Lexapro. I wasn't depressed but I wasn't happy either, I just felt bland. It sucked up all my creative thoughts and turned them into frustration.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- I don't like telling about how I feel to some counselor as she sits there and nods, taking notes. It makes me feel like a subject, not a patient.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- It helps sometimes but not always.
- Zoloft Not Working
Open Self-Injury
I've been self harming for twelve out of my seventeen years and the addiction to feeling the razors on my skin is beginning to make itself permanently at home. It needs to take a hike but I don't know how, or am sure I'll be able to.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Not Working
- Outpatient Treatment Program Not Working
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Red Marker Somewhat Helpful
- Rubber Bands Not Working
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Prescription Drug Abuse
My mom's a pharmiscist so it's not like the drugs are hard to come by. I take whatever I can get my hands in the way of sleeping, pain, and anxiety medications. Pretty much anything that will make me fade for a while. If I can't get those, I take whatever's laying on the counter. I don't know how I'm not dead yet because I'm told random mixtures of medications are definately not good. I fear I may be closer to dieing at a young age than I think.
Treatments
- Residential Treatment Center Not Working
Open Bisexuality
I love a person for who they are, not what's between their legs. Leaning a bit more torwards girls but I'm attracted to guys too. It's hard to be bisexual where I live, in a religously oppressive town that seems to enjoy ranting about how it's a sin (don't even believe in god but the critisicm still hurts)
Open Anemia
Type: Iron Deficiency AnemiaMy case probably isn't as severe as some of the people here and I feel kinda bad for making it out to be terrible when, well I'm sure whoever's reading this knows what I mean. It's a case none the less.
Treatments
- Iron Considering
Open Arthritis - Juvenile
I have it in my hands and wrists and as I'm sure we know can be quite painful. It really sucks because I can't play my guitar anymore, and plenty of other instruments, which was my passion. I can't write for long periods of time either. I'm not recieving treatments currently but my doctor is looking into it.
Open ADHD / ADD
ADD runs in my family like water runs in a river. I'm one of many of us. My head constantly feels like I have a wall of televisions in my brain and everyone is on a different channel.
