InsomniacM's Journal

Supposed to be posted on the 22nd but i accidentally set it to private. not that it matters. Blah blah blah blah blah.

Cleche, But so fitting.

"  - That means its a quote. This is far to awesome for me to have written it.

I bought you a gift: it's a picture frame for my face.

Because you think you want me around, but you'll forget. They all forget. I just...

When you decide to place me in the past,

..happen to know how the human mind works. Ive been victim to it over and over

because nothing lasts.

Perfect. Lalala story of my life. ILU Jack Conte.

Yeah nothing lasts,

So much space to write. Hm what should I write?  no nothing lasts. 

  Inevitably yeah,   

yeah.  I can see whats happening, its obvious.  I knew it all along.   I  feel like such a freak for doing this.

i could look the other way. I knew it from the very start.I wish ..... I dont want you to hide it from me. ...even if it hurts I can take it.

I felt it in my heartboom.boom.boom.crashIf there's even one to feel.

What you have with her is OBVIOUSLY deeper.I feel like youre just humouring me now. but you'renot, and im just a paranoid idiot. I know you still care about me some

Let me be. . . . . . I'm just worthless.. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Its how ive always been.

 .  .. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . I hate myself . . Let me alone.

I remember what it was like last year. For however many months last year when i felt horrible for feeling good.Im not saying i miss it, because she was miserable,

and she deserves to be happy.                    Water me; my memories are wilting. 

the world likes to remind me that i dont deserve anything 

Only the stuff written in black is the quote, of course."

I think I'm in love with Jack Conte.

His music makes me smile.

<3...............Far too much................<3