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I have a history exam tomorrow and i am freaking out to the extreme. I am so very extremly nervous that i have feel my …
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altrocker0976 
12:05am, September 17, 2008
My head has hurt all day long. I did try to go out for a little while at least to get the disability forms turned in for OU. I yelled my mom and at my bf. It's been a pretty crappy day. Once he left to go race, I slept for a few hours but my headache still hurts. I have to work tomorrow and practice with the band so I really don't want to feel like shit or fly off the handle again like I did today at any of them. I still haven't told any of the band members about bp. I'm not sure what to say. I'm usually pretty good about controlling mood swings around them or when I'm in public. I just can't control them around my parents, my bf, and my really close friends so I'm slowly pulling away from everyone as this has progressed over the last few months. I'm not sure what to do anymore. I've asked my bf to move out, I just feel like I'm ruining his life by yelling at him 24/7 over stupid things when I'm not even mad or even upset. Ugh...I can't believe that this is happening after I was joking about how crazy my grandma is with her bipolar and now I have it. DAMN IT! I just want to make it through next semester without failing out...Why couldn't I have picked a less stressful major.
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Hi, there new friend! You came up on my friends in need page. Just wanted to say, there's so many different pdoc opinions on antidepressants. When I stopped mine for about a year, I was a raging maniac. Sounds like a lot of your prob is rage? IMHO, I'd try to get back on the Lexapro and a good mood stabilizer. (I like Seroquel XR...it almost took away ALL of my rage)
Good luck, feel free to message me anytime and hope you feel better soon. Hugs, B
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what happened to your grandmother doesn't mean it will happen to u. u have just started meds it sounds like, it may take alittle while to find the ones that work the best for u. the therapy will help to. your grades have gone down, because lack of concentration. talk to your advisor and explain the situation and see what happens. if u don't feel meds r not working talk to your doc before u start or stop taking them. this is very important. does your bf know what happening to u? i would talk to him about everyting and give him the chance to tell u how he feels. let me know if u would like to be friends.
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