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Atay 
8:03pm, July 20, 2009
Ah for f*&'s sake! The cravings are creeping in. You know, the stomache is full but your body feels as if it needs food constantly. The gum, the tea, the water, the carrots, fruit....nothing works. My body is soooo achy! My mind is groggy. Have to stay awake to keep an eye on the kids. Need sleep. Ugh! And then I'm going out to dinner with my best girlfriend tonight. Crap, I don't want to overeat! I have to remember it's not about the fat and weight, it's about how I feel physically and emotionally. I don't feel good stuffed. I don't get vitamins when I eat bread and butter. I feel so much better when I eat good food. And, as hard as it will be.......tonight I'm going to eat with awareness. I won't let my mind go bye-bye. Nope! My mantra for the day, "Slow down, breathe, be aware." There....all better.
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You can do this Atay! Sure wish I would have read your entry a few hours ago when I had "THAT" feeling myself. Now I sit here with the overstuffed feeling. Don't end up tonight where I am right now. You know its hell, no matter what your ED tells you. Don't listen to the whispers or screams from inside. Listen to YOU. You know what you need!
ShariB
it sounds like you are going through one of those stages you talked about before. i can relate, at least once a month my appetite is totally out of control!!! just try and relax...allow yourself to eat as much as you want, just keep it healthy. you are stronger than you know, and you are going to get through this!!!!!
Future7