Atay's Journal

I am so terribly bored.  I realize with my daughter being gone, how lonely I am.  I don't have too many friends.  I also don't have any hobbies.  I've tried several different things over the years, but nothing interested me enough to really stick with me.  I don't lead an exciting life, that's for sure.  I'd really like to change that.  However, when I do make myself do something, I'm still bored and not enjoying.  It's the depression, of course.  I find it terribly sad.  I think I need to start college.  Who doesn't need to be college educated?  Even if I'm almost 40!  I wonder if I can go to school if I'm on mental disability.  I think so.  I don't know, I'll check.  I need to DO something.  Have some purpose or have some drive.