Atay's Journal

I'm getting crazier.  I'm doing strange things.  I do not feel like reaching out, of course, but I'm going to type my entry no matter what.

I'm stealing.  I'm so broke I took some money from a friend.  That has to be one of the craziest moments of my life.  I'd just never thought I'd do that.

I'm also broke and fantasizing about getting liposuction and a boob job.  This is complete insanity for me so I know there is mega trouble in my heart.  I just don't know what is bothering me so much.  Most likely the money issue.  The aging.  The gaining of weight.  The sick father.  The changing of meds, again.  It's too much.

I wonder, as I watch myself, how can I stay so blind?