whirlwind of a day
boy today has been a whirl wind of emotions first a wake up wondering what its ging on with my brother after he went to …
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AshleyAnn05 
5:20pm, October 14, 2009
I figured that its about time for a new journal entry, since I've made it 55 days without pulling my hair. I fully admit to keeping DS at an arms length. I reached a point where I was done hearing tell me people that I don't care about them or what they are going through. I'm only one person who can only do so much and if a hug, encouragement or nice phone call doesn't cut it, then I'm sorry. I wasn't about to let others negativity suck me in, like gravity. It just wasn't and still isn't going to happen. Life is too short to always be so damn down and negative. Granted, we all have our bad days, but if the majority of people would be grateful for the things they do have in their life, maybe they wouldn't be so sad and negative.
Its been a hellish few weeks. Still fighting my employer every single step of the way in this horrible lawsuit. I refuse to give up and let them win. Justice will prevail at the end and I will win, no ifs ands or buts about that matter. As the pain travels to most of the right side of my body, I find my 23 year old body feeling like its about 70 some days. I just try to stay as positive as one cooped up 23 year old bubbly girl can with so much pain and things going on in my life.
Positive thinking, knowing and accepting how the universe works, helps me everyday. I've become more aware of my inner thoughts and although most people don't understand this, if you watch, 'The Secret,' you just might. It truly helped me change myself and the way I live day in and day out.
I've met a few amazing, life changing people from here and I know I wouldn't be here on day 55, staying strong without their help. Although they, or one in particular say I don't owe him anything, I really do. I owe that person more than any words can say. They have stuck with me, got to know me and loved me for me. They accept the good, the bad and the ugly with me and that's more than any girl could ever want or expect. You know who you are and I promise to always be there for you whenever, wherever you need me. =)
Always,
Ash
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are you talkin bout me ash if so u luv u with all my heart n even if not i still lov u wit all my heart adh please dont ever 4get that my lil o h bff ur more then just ne friend to me ash i luv u n always well keep up the good work
justme2009
Your posivity is so appealing! 55 days without pulling is fantastic. Well done you!
emsinmanchester
Hey Ash, i am glad you have come so far. I think that many people on DS could learn from you. Take care.
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