AshleyAnn05's Journal

I recently received the best advice of my life over the past week.When it comes to my addiction, I will stop when I want to stop and I truly believe I have reached that point. I have to start fighting the urge, the want to play the stupid game. I need to spend the next 6 months fighting that urge day in and day out. While doing this, I also have to accept the fact that I, like everyone else is perfect in my own way. God created us as a piece of him and so we are all a piece of the perfect pie. =) I have to stay focused, determined and keep my eye on the end prize. I have to love me for me and finally start focusing on me. I think that the reason why I haven't stopped for good in the past is that I've been so passionate about helping others that I merely forgot to help myself.I know that this will probably be a rough 6 months but after I succeed, pulling will become a thing of the past in my life. Something I will look back and think, hmm yeah, I guess I did use to pull my hair. =) They would be proud to here me say this.....I am sick and tired or being sick and tired!! My will power to stop pulling has never been this strong and honestly I've never been passionate and nearly excited to quit. I'm looking forward to really seeing my hair grow in and be able to style it in more ways than I have been.

I am eternally grateful for this amazing advice. I can't help but wish that the person who gave it to me didn't have to go through hell and back a million times to learn what they have told me. I am just in complete awe of this person and what they are all about. I care about this person so much and owe them a lot for helping me tremendously. =)