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katienob 
5:48am, October 14, 2009
Please be patient with me when i am low or when im high. Please dont think or say im lazy when i could do one thing but not the same the next day. please dont think im lazy when i cant get out of bed. please dont tell me how im feeling, because you dont know. I dont even know. Please dont go away when i ask you too. i need you the most when i spit these words at you.
please dont take the piss out of my bipolar and please dont take the piss about my biplolar with your friends. its okay for me to take the piss. ;laugh with me.. not at me.. because this is how i cope with it. please dont take it personal when i am mean and aggressive. please dont ask me to repeat myself more than three times when im babbling on. dont tell me to speak up or god forbid cheer up! please dont tell me im dragging you down, please dont tell me you argued because of me. instead tell me your going to be there when i get thru this. please dont walk on egg shells i am not retarded. please dont say " im not a mind reader!" please tell me the things calmly when i am more "stable" the things i done that upset you. please dont get angry with me if i can not remember. please remember your true daughter, the girl you fell in love with or the reason as to why your my friend when you start to wonder where i went. i will come back!! please dont say that im ungrateful, please dont say that i am selfish. the bipolar is. but not me. please dont be offended when i dont open up to you when i cant stand to be touched when i not been in contact with you for a while, when im like this. dont ask me if im okay.. ask me if i want a hug.. dont tell me you felt like this cause you were depressed for a few days, tell me you love me and that you will be there at the end of it.
please keep tight hold of my hand to keep me grounded or pull me up when i am down. I know its not easy. i know we have to work as a team. i know you need your time out sometimes. i promise i wont get offended when and if you do just let me know. please get help for yourselves weather that be professional or friends, be honest with them. you and me well we have nothing to be ashamed of, so please dont go on like you are. please work with me to work out my triggers, so we can realise when things are getting out of hand.
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Honestly, that's quite beautiful. It's more like a Cliff's notes to dealing with someone who has BP. I know what each and every one of those actions and reactions are like. If I were you I would print that out and give it to your close family, friends and boyfriend to show them how you feel. If not, at least keep it for yourself, not for a means of excuse, but more for a reminder of how things can be when you stabilize.
I'm happy for you that you wrote that. Just as you praised me for my writing, so I shall tell you the same.
Bravo!
Kuup
Kuup37
Wow, I wish I could take what you have written and share it with the members of my family when I was your age. You really hit the nail on the head. Especially the part about not telling me how I'm feeling and not saying I'm just lazy when I couldn't get out of bed. My mom still thinks that I "faked' a whole bunch of sick days in high school, and I graduated over 30 years ago.
I'd much rather someone gave me a hug instead of asking how I am. Why do people do that? Most of them really don't care, and if I tell them I feel like crap, they usually just look at me and walk away. They didn't really want to know, but they still asked the question.
SahKonteic