Tuesday, February 26, 2008
February 26, 2008 9:23am
i had my first stay in the hospital. i had a manic/anxiety/impulsive episode and swallowed about 8o perphenazines. it was strange to be in the mental …
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aimsohighabove 
12:38am, November 3, 2008
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About Me
aimsohighabove
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About Me
I am bipolar. I have more highs than lows and have had some severe issues with anxiety. I've been doing well for the past few months except for a few ups and downs. On one recent occasion I found myself out with a person I barely knew drinking far too much for the medication. 12 days later I was in my behavioral health case managers office for a visit explaining to her how I had all the sudden found myself unable to do anything but sleep when i came home but that I didn't feel any reason to be sad. I told her about that night and she sent me down to the labs and later that night I got the email that I was pregnant. So now I am fresh on my way to joining the unwed mothers club and I'm actually very excited about it. I had to adjust my meds to deal with the baby growing inside me. This has been strange for me. Decreasing my meds for the baby makes me feel like a real mother. It' hard with the loss of meds and the mix of hormones and the fear of the 7x greater risk of rehospitalization for bipolor women during pregnancy. I'm afraid sometimes. This will be my first child. I've been in this place over the last few years where I have gotten the feeling that I'm not allowed to show people that I love them. That somehow I am overstepping some boundaries. Maybe I just don't feel safe with other people. Having this kid is one place where I can love them all they want and I won't have to be afraid of it.
I am bipolar. I have more highs than lows and have had some severe issues with anxiety. I've been doing well for the past few months except for a few ups and downs. On one recent occasion I found myself out with a person I barely knew drinking far too much for the medication. 12 days later I was in my behavioral health case managers office for a visit explaining to her how I had all the sudden found myself unable to do anything but sleep when i came home but that I didn't feel any reason to be sad.
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painting, writing, carving, music, running...
painting, writing, carving, music, running...
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Journal Entry for January 16, 2008
January 16, 2008 12:25am
i am going to the capital tomorrow to raise a little hell about funding for DD and community healthcare. wish me luck.
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Journal Entry for January 4, 2008
January 4, 2008 12:39am
i am currently taking my meds at their max dose so i am hoping the pdoc switches things up soon. its getting hard to sleep at night. I want to take …
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Journal Entry for January 2, 2008
January 2, 2008 3:02am
i should b sleeping. to day was ok. but i felt super lazy at work. all i did was fill out forms to get my gas paid for and vacuum up lat nights party …
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thanks for the hug it means a lot! And its so nice to hear from a young person struggling with the same issues
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finished reading ur post in schiz...what if and felt like giving u a hug :))
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Thinking of you and sending you big hugs xx
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Hi, I just wanted to send a hug your way. How are you doing? hope you have a wonderful day
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Sending big massive hugs for the day ahead. hope you have a good day.xx
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Treatments
- Abilify Not Working
- Celexa Working / Worked
- just started
- Lamictal Too Soon to Tell
- Lithium Not Working
- hands shook and sex drive plummeted. mood was absent completely
- Seroquel Considering
- Symbyax Not Working
- stopped in 06
- Trazodone Somewhat Helpful
- for sleep...its ok
- Xanax Not Working
- my heart races uncontrollably when i don't take it... physical addiction? but still taking regularly
- Zyprexa Not Working
- way too sleepy
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