Journal

I took a risk and asked someone that I look up to a lot to be a mentor in my life, and just be constant and deliberate and told her she was someone I immediately felt comfortable around and want to be like and all that good stuff....

And she comes out to me. Maybe thats why she is one of the only people in my life that I feel truly safe around. In any case, today was the best day ever and I think its gonna keep going up hill from here.  

The guy: Cute, funny, thoughtful, easy to talk to, religious, extremely smart to the point that it embarasses him, deep, selfless, down to earth, and realllly flirting with me. 

The girl: Unbelievably gorgeous to the point that it takes my breath away, sporty, funny, good morals, shy, sweet, smart, someone I can have amazing conversations with, straight?

I am trying so hard to get with the guy because I am so attracted to him, at least I think. What my fear is that I want to be with him, so that she doesn't think I am gay. I am falling so hard for both of them, and I will probably go for the guy, but want to girl sooo bad.

Being Bi SUCKS.