So I have my physical testing next week...
October 4, 2008 10:53am
I passed my initial examination, and now it's onto the physical. I hope I pass it well enough, but I'm more worried about the oral …
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gremlin1267 
11:32am, October 8, 2008
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About Me
gremlin1267
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About Me
I am currently living in Corvallis, OR, at least until this next. I've been living with bulimia, and apparently bipolar disorder since I was a teenager. Bulimia has always plagued me, starting with sports in high school, and developing into a full blown psychiatric case of eating paranoia. I hate it passionately, but it has made me who I am today, and if I can find some balance it will always be a reminder of who I once was... This past year has been horrible. I lost my wife, my house, my dogs, everything in my life seems to have turned upside down. Now, I'm more out of control than normal. My eating is horrible. My drinking is the same. And I just can't seem to find a balance point. I hope by moving closer to my friends will help me turn things around. So, now my new goals are going to be becoming a police officer in Corvallis, that way I'll have a permanent job, with benefits. I think that I need the benefits more right now, than I need anything else, just because my bipolar disorder is really affecting my bulimia. I just can't seem to focus on myself. But I'm enjoying myself in Corvallis, and taking some time to just relax and try to figure some stuff out. I'm here for the long haul, so I don't see any reason to rush into anything. I would like to have a descent schedule right now, and I'm still waiting on my second job to start up. I'm about ready to go out and find another one, just in spite of being so bored and out of routine.
I am currently living in Corvallis, OR, at least until this next. I've been living with bulimia, and apparently bipolar disorder since I was a teenager. Bulimia has always plagued me, starting with sports in high school, and developing into a full blown psychiatric case of eating paranoia. I hate it passionately, but it has made me who I am today, and if I can find some balance it will always be a reminder of who I once was... This past year has been horrible. I lost my wife, my house, my dogs, everything
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Interests
Weight lifting, bodybuilding, snowboarding, music, writing, playing online, reading (mostly science fiction novels, or workout journals). I like to fly fish, and hunt, although I don't go much anymore.
Weight lifting, bodybuilding, snowboarding, music, writing, playing online, reading (mostly science fiction
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Tuesday...a little rough
September 30, 2008 3:05pm
So today started off very slow. I awoke, no not to my alarm, but to my head going, it's later than I expected. Oh crap, it's 7:15 …
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Journal Entry for September 26, 2008
September 26, 2008 4:49pm
So I'm on to the next step in the process. I had my first opening test today, and I think it went pretty well. Not to terribly …
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Today...started off pretty rocky, but it's getting better...
September 24, 2008 5:26pm
So I thought I might have one of those horrible days where I just couldn't stand doing anything. I was tired as all get out in the …
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Thoughts for the day...
September 20, 2008 2:35pm
Well, it's Saturday. And I have a date for after work, which hopefully will go well. I'm still not exactly sure what …
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I h ope you are ok...please refirend me if and when you may return.. xoxoxoxoxox Love, Lydia
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Its been ages since we have seen any activity in your feed and journal, how are you sweet???? Hope you are okay xx
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Close Eating Disorders
Type: BulimiaI developed an eating disorder in high school due to my experience with track and from having a low level of self-esteem. I have since gone on to beat the disease, only to have it come re-occur just recently after college and a lot of life changes (ie. new job, new town, home ownership, marriage, death of mom, personal injury, lack of job satisfaction, too much stress). Anyway, there's a lot more to the story than just this, but that's the main gyst of the topic.
Treatments
- Prozac Somewhat Helpful
- The Fluoxetine Hcl seems to work at controling my mood swings, but it really doesn't control my anxiety, so I think I need to get a new prescription that controls both.
Close Bipolar Disorder
Well, this last year I was diagnosed with a low grade of bipolar disorder. I've struggled for years with bulimia, and have been in and out of therapy, on anti-depressants, and nothing seemed to help me completely. I'd wake up every morning and get ready for the monotomous task of going to work, which I used to love and say,"God, I hate my life!" I didn't know why. I had everything I could possibly want, besides my own island in the Bahamas. I had a loving wife, friends, a house, savings...
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