Journal Entry for October 9, 2009
October 9, 2009 10:09am
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coffeelady 
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About Me
coffeelady
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About Me
I am a young 52 working in the medical insurance field. I have one daughter and 2 terrific grandchildren. I love the outdoors, camping, fishing, gardening and all sorts of hobbies and crafts. I am trying to work up the nerve to take my life back. Married 5 years to an emotional and mental abuser - sometimes physical. I want to be happy again and free to live my own life not his! I am leaving him as soon as I can find a place. I can't do this anymore!!! I found a place and let the countdown begin!!! 17 days to freedom!!!!! August 1st I will be freeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!
I am a young 52 working in the medical insurance field. I have one daughter and 2 terrific grandchildren. I love the outdoors, camping, fishing, gardening and all sorts of hobbies and crafts. I am trying to work up the nerve to take my life back. Married 5 years to an emotional and mental abuser - sometimes physical. I want to be happy again and free to live my own life not his! I am leaving him as soon as I can find a place. I can't do this anymore!!! I found a place and let the countdown begin!!!
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Happy Monday~…
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Thanks! Being strong is not one of my better --ests. But I am trying and I will get past this. God willing!…
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coffeelady gave Pam730 an I'm with you 10:31am
It's not easy letting go. They seem to have this eternal hold on us. I don't know how or why but it's…
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Screeching hault!
August 21, 2009 4:09pm
The roller coaster came to a screeching hault last night. Depression and anxiety have got a hold on me that I just can't seem to …
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Weekl one!
August 10, 2009 9:59am
Well it’s been a whole week in my new place, and I’m finally getting settled. Shadow and Nudge seem to be adjusting well, …
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Happy Monday! Glad to be your friend here at DS. Peace & Love~ Pam
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Thanks for your kind words.
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Good for you, Have to be strong. It's soo much better without them. Peaceful.......
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Whooooo Hooooo CL!! Thought you dropped of the site!!! Haven't heard from u in a while. How's it going?? Cindi
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Welcome back, dear one! What's going on!!?!??!?!
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Close Breakups & Divorce
Update: Well it's been nearly 2 years since I moved back home. And some things haven't changed, but some have. I don't walk on eggshells anymore. I know I can make it on my own now. I don't need him like I used to. I'm just not sure that marriage is the best thing for us anymore.
Treatments
- Forgiveness Somewhat Helpful
- I forgave him for all the hurt that he caused me over the years but I can never forget.
- Leave Working / Worked
- Left him for 4 months. Alone time did us both good!
- Love Somewhat Helpful
- I did go home after 4 months so there must be some still there.
- Pets Working / Worked
- My Shadow and my Nudge got me through the worst of times.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Communication is the key. If you can get on the same level it helps!
Close Smoking Addiction & Recovery
I know I need to stop smoking. It's very hard after doing it for over 30 years. I have tried just about everything.
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Not Working
- Hypnotherapy Not Working
- Acupuncture Not Working
Open Coronary Heart Disease
DH has 3 stents and last year had a double bipass. He is on more meds than I care to list!
Treatments
Open Impotence & Erectile Dysfunction
coffeelady hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Healthy Relationships
coffeelady hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Financial Challenges
coffeelady hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I am married to a narcissistic abuser. Although he hasn’t been physical in over 2 years he is still verbally, mentally and emotionally abusive.
Treatments
- Leave Considering
- I left him two years ago for 6 months. Within 6 mo. after my return things were right back where they were before I left. I am a weak person and afraid to stand up for myself where he is concerned.
